Above the Water

5. The Rain will soon stop

It felt like a lump was in my throat, I couldn't even swallow, I had been lied to for 25 years, I thought my mother had passed away from drugs, my dad said after saying she was dead to us so many times he just decided to go with that instead of the hard truth that between drugs and her family not wanting to accept me he shielded me from the hard reality. Being pregnant I was overly emotional but I knew that I would've done the same thing for my child, yes I was hurt but I was more hurt at the fact that my mom didn't want to get her life straight for me, her daughter. I was so confused, how ironic was it that my mom husband was my professor, my therapist fiancé and the father of my unborn, further more what was she doing with Kevin? I wanted to call Kevin but I haven't talked to him in a few months, he didn't even know I was expecting, I decided against it. Life was far more complicated than ever before and it seem like the more answers that I searched for the more complex shit had gotten. The next morning Dad and I had breakfast more like brunch because I didn't wake up til well after 12:00. He explained everything to me and told me it was my choice to speak with her, still after all these years how do she she appear? Something wasn't sitting right with me and I was going to find out. Over the next few weeks I did alot of diggin to find out my mom's, well Carol Garri background, I couldn't find much but a few arrest, however I noticed that Mr. Garri had moved around a lot and I found a few alias, it was getting more difficult and of course I didn't have money to hire a P.I. between Cash and my dad helping me financially I only had enough to pay bills and eat which was fine by me, to be honest after all that I've been thru none of the materialistic shit matters at this point. I was certain to find the truth one way or another, One night as I left the store I noticed a silver sedan following me, maybe their just going the same way I'm going but I noticed when I got over they got over, I decided to call my dad but he didn't answer so I called my cousin Johnathan which is Jade brother, he told me to come to his parking garage and he'll be waiting on me, I pulled in and so did the car but once they saw a male the sped off! I caught a glimpse and it was Carol, what the fuck is she doing following me? I wanted no parts at all. Jonathan followed me home, made sure I was in the building safe. It was 3:03 a.m when I woke up in pain, I could barely make it to the restroom, I saw blood, was I in labor? Yes I had to be, I called my dad who had went to Alabama for a bowling tournament and the ambulance, I called Cash, getting through Atlanta traffic was hell no one was nearby, I decided to call Kevin since we stay closer, he picked up I could tell he was sleep, I told him he would get to me first before anyone and that I was pregnant and in labor, it took him a minute to fully comprehend, I had to tell him it happened after our breakup to my surprise he still came, he made it there before the ambulance, by the time I pulled up, checked in to labor and delivery I told Kevin he could go, he wanted to wait til someone got there so I won't be alone. Right when I was getting a room Cash showed up, I finally got a room, Kevin was about to leave but the baby was coming, he held my hand and cried. This man whom I loved since a kid was here while I was having another's man baby, another nurse came in and said my father was out there giving security a hard time I told her to let him in, I was pushing and pushing, I was in pain, next thing you knew I heard tiny cries, my babygirl, I named her "Shine" because she truly was my ray of Sunshine. Kevin said she was beautiful and left. After three days we finally left the hospital, a week later the concierge for my building called me and stated that detectives were down stairs and wanted to talk to me, I told him to let them up. What I was about to hear would change me... forever!!