Melanie messed with her teeth gems as she scrolled her phone. "Stop doing that" Brandon said and pulled her hand out her mouth.
"It helps my anxiety"she whispered and continued to do it.
We get out the car and walk up to our childhood home. I look around and flowers were on the fence, I guess from fans.
We walk up and walk in, everyone else was there, a gloomy mood. "Jocelyn, your room is the only one left" Finneas weakly smiled.
I let out a breath and walk up the familiar, but different stairs. I go to my room and look at the office sticker before pulling it off, opening the door.
I look around and everyone else stood at the door. I bite my lip and turn on my red lights. I go sit on the bed, my scent flying up.
"You ok?" Gawa whispered and I nod. I look over and turn off the red ones and reaching behind my curtains, turning on the blue ones. A picture lit up, because of my green hair in the picture.
I walk over and look at it, I smile, and lift it up, the string pulling. It was quiet before my bookshelf slid open, everyone else jumping.
"Remember when I would randomly disappear and dad would find me?" I ask Finneas, pointing at it and he nodded.
I walk in the room and they all walk behind me.I turn on light blue light, and the light that made it look and sound like we were underwater. "Woah!" Blake grinned.
"Watch" I smile and flip another switch, the lights turned off and the ceiling opened and a small disco came out, the rainbow lights turned on and it slowly spun, making certain things light up when a certain color hit it.
"Wow!" Raelyn gasped.
I wait til a red light it a small book Jahseh gave to me and pick it up, blowing the dust off it. It was a huge picture book of us, just random pictures.
I flip to my favorite, he had jokingly proposed to me with a ringpop. I flip again to when we when to go see some snakes around friends had. I had a big ass snake around my neck and was sticking out my pierced tongue, Jahseh had some in his hair and some hanging off his shoulders, sticking out his tongue.
I smile and tuck the book under my arm before finding other stuff I hid. We finished and I sadly turn off all the lights.
"Are we gonna sell this house?" I ask Finneas. "I could live it in" Melanie asked and Finneas look at her and back at me. "I mean you could, we would have to redo a lot, it would take a while" I nod.
"Like this" Brandon said pointing to a whole in the wall. "Anger issues"i mumble and climb over to the bed, "and this" I say pulling the huge blanket down, my wall.
"Oh my jesus" they all mumble.
I sit there and read random shit, damn I was on such a bad state of mind. "I wanna shoot Brandon" I chuckle, pointing to some words. Everything was written over, but I could read it. "Mental hospitals suck ass" I point.
I read and get to a part when I was cutting almost everyday.
"I wanna end me" I mumble.
"If I left would anyone miss me?" I whisper.
"Damn" Prince whispered.
I hum and remember I had a stash behind my bed, I squeal and jump off the bed. I grip the edge and get in a good stance before pulling the bed.
"Oh shit, muscles"Rain said squeezing my arm. I get it pulled and walk to the other side, I get on my knees and look at the hole in the wall.
I stick my hand in and reach around before pulling out many guns. "Oh hell yea" I grin. I finished with a total of 15.
