Montana moments Book 3- Boats and Babies

chapter 20

Dev

So it seems i'm going to have a office or shop at the house. I like the idea a lot. I don't want Beth stuck at home with the kids all by herself. On top of that she doesn't want to use birth control. As much as I want more children the thought of having four kids under two makes me want to run for the hills. I love our babies don't get me wrong but at night its hard. Sig is just sleeping threw the night but he is getting more and more active by the day. He took his first steps to me last night night and Beth cried. The twins are almost two months old and are doing well.

As much as I don't want to bring anything else big up I know we need to have the conversation in regard to more kids right now thing. So I start it. I hope I don't fuck this up. "Babe, what are we going to do about the whole you wont use birth control thing?"

"nothing, i'm not going to use it" she stated.

"So are you saying you want to add more children to the three we have, as in right now?" Ano asks her. I know he was planning on using a rubber last night because I seen it.

"i want more kids yes." she shrugged.

"babe you also want to go back to school. With three kids its going to be hard enough. Ano has to work the hours he does. I can work when ever to a point but I have to work. Its not the money it just who I am. I need the release that doing my craft gives me."

"i know babe. I will be fine. Sig will be one soon. The twins are doing well. I got cleared medically"

"i know you can handle the kids, I don't doubt that but are we ready to add another to the mix?" I ask her.

"are you saying that you don't want me to have any more?" she asks a bit pissy like. Well hormones still in play

"no love, not at all. What I am saying is lets wait like a year or six months. Give your body a chance to heal. Give us a chance to adjust. Let us get our house done. Lets get the legal shit out of the way. Lets just take a bit of time to adjust to everything. Then lets stop using it."

"if that's what you both want then I guess rubbers it is but if were using them, your using them too. All is fair." she tells us sweetly. Fuck I hate condoms but I agree. We seal it with a kiss and I make a mental note to get more of them. Better ones.

"now that its settled what now? The house is still two months away from being done. I hired a professional cleaner to come in before we move in then once a week after. With three kids its going to be hard and honestly I know you would use the help with stupid shit like baseboards and such" I tell her. She smiles at me. She wants to be super mom but knows she would rather be with the kids then scrubbing behind the fridge.

"So whats next for us? Marriage?" Ano asks.

"i'm thinking so but first I have to do something." She reaches over me and opens the night stand. Taking out the necklace with her wedding bands on it and her engagement band from me. She takes of my ring and hands it back to me. Then asks me to put the necklace and with the other two rings on it in the safe.

"You told me to wear it how ever I chose until I am ready. Well i'm ready. I'm handing it back to you because I want to make sure the next time it goes on my finger your ready to. I love you Dev. I can say that with a clear mind, and ready heart. John will always be my past but you, Ano, and our kids are my future." She tells me. I kiss her. I have been planning on something for a few weeks now.

The night is one of the best we have had yet, yes were tired and need sleep but its for the best reason ever, our kids are with us. We get to burp them, we get to feed them, even the diapers are a pleasure. Montana screaming is music to my ears honestly. Maybe not to 'Cade's. We have moved Sig into the nursery due to the twins waking him up at all hours. Its sad for me. My bond with him is the strongest of the three I think. Only because he is outgoing and loud. He has taken to running into me with his walker and laughing. He doesn't do it to Ano or Beth. They tell him no. Me, I just laugh and growl at him. When he does get scolded he reaches for Ano. It meltworthy.