Elsa x Female Reader One Shots

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WARNING: Mentions of self harm.

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I put the bloody razor away as I grip my aching arm, sitting on the bathroom floor. I promised Elsa I'll stop doing this, and I did for some time, but now I couldn't help it. I don't know what I'll say if she finds out. And she sure will.

Shit, she's gonna be so pissed.

Just at the moment I take the razor again and start making one more cut Elsa enters the bathroom.

"Baby, where are-" Her eyes widen as she stares at my bloody arm. I stop with what I was doing in fear of her reaction.

She slowly takes the razor away from my hand and presses it against her wrist, as if she wants to cut herself. I jump up throwing the metal blade on the other side of the bathroom. I plant a kiss on the soft skin of her wrist.

"Don't harm yourself, love."

"I keep saying the same to you, but you won't listen." She replies dryly. I bow my head down in shame, but her cold fingertips lift my chin up. "Why do you do this to yourself?" Her voice cracks.

"I'm sorry." Is all I can choke out as I sob into her chest. We cry together in grief for neither one of us knows how to help me.

"You need to go to a psychiatrist." She states calmly. "Or I should simply cut myself every time you do, so you could see how pointless it is."

I cup her face and peck her soft lips.

"Please don't do that. I'll stop."

"You said that the last time." Elsa sighs.

"I know." I whisper. "I just don't know what's wrong with me. I don't understand why I do that."

"Neither do I, Y/N, neither do I." She says placing me against the counter and taking the first aid kit. She nurses my wounds gently, being extremely careful as to not to cause me any more pain.

"Done." She caresses my cheek lovingly and kisses my forehead, but then rests her hands on the counter on the either side of my body looking at me in a 'what am I going to do with you' manner.

"I'm sorry." I apologize again, not knowing what else to say.

"Let's try it like this. Every time you feel like doing this, call me and I'll come right away. If I have to, I'll come from anywhere and stop you from doing this."

I bite my lip as guilt overwhelmes me. She's willing to do anything for my well-being but my stupid self can't stop distressing her with all these harmful doings.

"Thank you for being so good to me. I don't deserve it at all."

Her icy blue eyes meet mine and give me a symphatetic look. "You do, baby, of course you deserve me. Don't speak about yourself like that, ok?" She coos.

"I'm just a burden to you, though. Your life would be so much easier if I wasn't in it."

"That's completely untrue, Y/N. This self harm you do is only one aspect of our lives. Yes, it should stop, but it's definitely not something that could ever make me give up on you. Besides, you are with me through all of my troubles, loneliness and problems. You sacrifice just as much as I do for you." Her eyes bore to the depths of my very soul and I smile for the first time today. "We both deserve each other, love, and don't you ever think differently."

"I love you, Elsa. I promise I'll stop doing this. I don't know how and when but I will."

She grins. "I love you too, honey."

Her arms wrap around me tightly and I don't hesitate to return the embrace.

We love each other and it's all that matters.