Falling Flames (Jimenez Cousins Series #2: Arvante, Quintelle)

CHAPTER 27

CHAPTER 27

Confrontation.

It was scarier this time. I had to explain. I have to defend myself from humility and judgement. The situation became even harder as I speak. My mind was blank to every possible outcome of my unraveling secrets. I had no insights to what will happen. No theories, no assumptions. Just mere guess of him leaving me after this confrontation. I can compare this fear to the day I learned to hold and use a gun. The feeling was heavy and sorrowful. Every word is a bullet and my mouth was the trigger. It was suicidal. It was like holding the gun to my head, killing myself with my own word of bullets. It is painful yet liberating. With every hope that the gun isn't really loaded. Just some illusion, prediction or a foresight. A daydream or a premonition of some kind.

"Ngayon kung tingin mo niloloko lang din kita, di kita pipiliting maniwala sa akin." humagulgol na ako

"Quin." mahinahon niyang tawag at tila gusto akong makita

Lalo akong yumakap sa kanya. This might be the last and I have to savour each passing seconds.

"You can leave if you want. I won't stop you. Just let me hug you like this the last time." halos pagmamakaawa ko

I heard his soft giggle. Natauhan ako. Is he mocking me? Why is he laughing? Agad ko siyang binitawan at nilingon. His pouting smile was cute and it melts my heart.

"You're paranoid, baby." malambing niyang sabi sabay natatawang nagpapalis ng luha sa aking pisngi

I pouted and cried more. "Ah! Stop it! I'm serious! Bakit ba hindi ka nagagalit?" frustrated kong iyak

He frowned and tried to stop laughing "Why would I be mad?" tila clueless niyang sabi

Naiinis ako dahil parang wala lang sa kanya ang ginawa ko sa kanya at sa pamilya niya. Hinawakan niya ang aking dalawang pulso gamit ang isang kamay at pinunasan naman ang aking pisngi gamit ang isa.

Iniwas ko ang aking mukha. "Raius, magseryoso ka nga! I fooled your father, I technically ruined your family. Bakit hindi ka nagagalit sakin?!" naiiyak ko lalong sigaw

He bit his lip and pulled me closer. He kissed my lips tenderly. Wala akong nagawa kung di hayaan siya. I had no choice. Natahimik ako ng sandali.

"Shh." he said between his kisses

"Rai." tila naging malambing kong tawag

He smirked and looked straight into my soul. "Stop overthinking, baby." paalala niya at pinalis ang luha kong tumigil sa pag agos ng halikan niya ako

Hinayaan ko siya. Damn, his kiss made me so weak. Tumiklop agad ako. Inayos niya ang takas na buhok ko at nilagay ito sa likod ng aking tenga. He cupped my cheeks.

"I'm not mad at you, i'm mad at what you did but I don't blame you for it. Yes,what you did was wrong but you only did what you had to and you did it for the right reasons." malambing niyang explanation.

He smiled sweetly as he breathe deeply. His words are sincere and pure. He kissed my forehead before speaking. He became serious

"It wasn't your fault that life was unfair to you and your brother. You didn't ruin my family, it was my father's fault. He cheated for lust and what you did was to survive. He was weak to temptation." he smirked. "Heck, I am weak to your temptation." tila natatawa niyang sabi

Natahimik ako lalo. He was melting every bit of conscience within me. It was like he was flushing the guilt I used to feel. Despite everything, he showed kindness. I can never deserve a man like him but he made me feel like he was deserving of me.