Never Ending Story 《Seungjin FF》

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This time Seungmin had had enough.

Seungmin's mother and he himself was discarding his old clothes. Seungmin was taking out a half jacket which he didn't like at all, and his mother had bought that for him. Those clothes were going to the orphanage anyways, so it didn't bother Seungmin much that it was brand new. Seungmin was pulling out more of his unwanted clothes when Seungmin's mother started ranting about the quality of the jacket. "It looks so good at you, can't you just wear it? I liked it a lot you know."

Seungmin looked at her from the corner of his eyes. He saw her looking all soft. As if hurt. Seungmin scoffed. "But I don't like it, and I haven't worn it since you bought it. It's better to give them to someone who needs it rather than someone who likes it or not." Seungmin said calmly. "I don't care if you like it or not! When I was of your age my dad bought me clothes and I wore it just fine!" She said. Seungmin was getting worked up now because now he was being compared.

He hated being compared. And she didn't know about it. She didn't know his favourite food too, fuck, nor did they know his favourite colour. This was what caused Seungmin to receive this jacket which was bright orange in colour. Another thing, Seungmin hated; bright colours, he liked dull brights or dull dark colours. In simple he liked pastels and black.

Seungmin was getting tired of his mother ranting about how good he looks in half jacket and all, she was not listening to Seungmin at all. So Seungmin had to speak in a higher voice, "I don't look for fashion mom. Comfort is all I ask. As for this half jacket, it leaves goosebumps on my arms when my body is just fine. It doesn't make me warm at all. And as for this, I didn't ask you to bring this. I never demand you any clothes. You and dad bring it as a surprise. Which I don't like anyways. I told you many times, I want something edible than something wearable. I have a lot of clothes that I don't wear anyways. Instead of spending money on stuffs that I don't like, I have always told you to keep it right?The clothes I have are something that I don't like to wear." Seungmin said, trying his best to keep calm and at the same time trying to keep anger away from his high tone. "But you always say you don't have clothes whenever we go out." His mother argued.

Now this got on his nerve. Why would he want to keep clothes for marriage ceremonies of the ones who were not even related to him? Couldn't he dress casually?? Because no one cared for him in the marriage anyways and heck, some didn't even recognise him. This was a great embarrassment. Or, why would he want to go to prayers at some colder places or more hotter places forcefully and he didn't even have clothes that were fit for that weather. His mother brought clothes for him entitled as 'just in case if we go to this place.' But they never did. And even if they did. She had brought the clothes a long time back that it disappeared in the closet.

Seungmin never went to any shopping of his own clothes with his parents. They were even forceful. If he didn't want to go to a place for prayer with them, they would've not been so threatening, they even said that his dad would break his legs by beating him up. No doubt that can happen if his mother doesn't stop his father on time.  Hell, Seungmin was being forced to pee too. Yesterday his mother hasn't seen him go to the toilet and she told his dad about it and his dad was literally threatening to beat him I'd he didn't go. Like how much more childish can they be?

"Yeah, but it's not me, it's you and dad who is forceful. And at some point save some money will you? You earn and spend it like water! If you save it, we can do a lot in the fu-" Seungmin was trying to be responsible here but his mother screamed at him. "SHUT UP?!" on top of her lungs. Seungmin knew his neighbours heard it. And now he looked at his mother with an open mouth. What the- Seungmin turned and stomped off to his room. There he pulled in his headphones and a tear escaped from his his right eye. He made up his mind. "I'm going to Australia to study, I'm going to bring a scholarship. And mind you, if I ever come back!" Seungmin yelled. He didn't want to stay here at this prison. He didn't have the independence to make his own decisions now.

Seungmin's dad had arrived now and his mother was filtering the whole story to him, so that she was on the safest side.  Seungmin was tired. Seventeen years and he was done. And beware, it's not just a family friendly rivalry we are talking about here. It's pure HATE not dislike. They did a really horrible thing at this point that Seungmin was so tired of them. He ended up hating them "I don't care if you take this in heart but I DON'T LIKE YOU BOTH AT ALL. AND I'M GOING TO LEAVE YOU!" He shouted for them to hear it. He didn't know where the confidence came from but he was admiting that he didn't like them on their faces. His mother scoffed. " Yeah, a boy like you can go to Australia this way and survive. Tch,you are such a majesty out here you now."

"You say when I leave you I'll know your value but, to be honest, I don't think so I'm going to miss this prison at all. I know I'm going to struggle trying to learn new things but....you'll see my value when I'm gone." Seungmin said, calmly now. His voice was void of any emotion. Seungmin truly felt hurt. He couldn't believe his own parents were so....evil.

They loved him but they were just too scared that the the outer world would hurt him, they had over protected him. This actually disturbed him mentally. He had become insecure and was not confident in himself when he was alone. He always needed someone to guide him in anything. And Seungmin knew about this.

He wanted to get confident. He couldn't even walk by himself at school one time. But he was learning it by himself. He was trying to correct his parents mistake. They might think they are the best parents. But little did they know how badly they were effecting his mind. Not only that but his heart. This is why he cries only at times when needed. He had trained his tears to dry up when something least emotional happened.

Every day with them was torture. At some point they would be so sweet and loving that he would forget about his grudge towards them. But at times when they actually blamed Seungmin like this, childishly... Seungmin wondered if having step parents are like this as well. Only difference they are not so confusing like this. They had one bad side and no bilopar personality like this one. He was determined to go to Australia. Listening to Felix's old tales. That kid's home might not be that bad after all. Seungmin could do Masters in English after college out there and be an author. He had a great imagination anyways.

And this whole argument was so weird. It was pointless and childish for adults like his parents.

He was leaving this place. At this point, Seungmin thought his 'infatuation' on Hyunjin might have ended.

But oh boy, how wrong was he to assume things when he was angry....

To be continued....