Never Ending Story 《Seungjin FF》

{7}

That night Hyunjin couldn't sleep. Seungmin was a great friend after all. He listened to him rant about ASMR's and Blackpink everyday. He would understand his problems and tried to help him out. And the most exciting thing was, he gave Hyunjin his full attention. Whatever he did, Seungmin's eyes were on him. Hyunjin blushed at this thought. He shook his head to stop thinking about this type of stuffs.

Just then Hyunjin got a message. A rather long one from Seungmin.

"Dear Jinnie,
I know you must be really mad at me but I was distancing myself from you because I didn't want to fall for you any deeper. You really hurt me with your prank but I knew I deserved this. I was....thinking if we could get in good terms back again? Like you and me, our friendship. But look, if you don't want to be my best friend anymore or even stay friends with me then it's okay. I understand. Hope you have a good life ahead but before you make a decision, please do first think it through."

Sincerely,
Seungmin.

Why was he writing so formally? Anyways Hyunjin kind of felt relieved and happy. He did feel a little guilty for what he had done. But he was more than happy to hear this from Seungmin. So he really did like Hyunjin genuinely it seems. He was just really happy to be loved. Not by the looks but by the heart. It was all new to Hyunjin. And he would be lieing if he said his heart didn't flutter at the thought. Hyunjin then did something really crazy because a question popped up in his mind. It wasn't like Hyunjin would be in a relationship with Seungmin if he wanted it......right? But too late, the call was picked up by a sleepy Seungmin.

"Hello?"
"Uh- why do you have this phone with you this late at night?" Hyunjin buttered out. Oh wow, he just made a fool out of himself by calling him and expecting someone else to pick up the phone. But Seungmin just giggled. "Hyunjin, my parents are in a whole night prayer today." Seungmin said.

Hyunjin's heart fluttered at the sound. Wait what? "Anyways, I wanted to tell you, I guess it's okay, we can still be best friends but, I'm sorry too. For what I had done. Well, I knew you had feelings for me and it seemed like I was playing with your hear-"
"It's okay Hyunjin, as far as you are happy and I'm not that hurt anyways. I think I got over the pain. It's just that I'm trying to get over you." Seungmin sighed.

That's when Hyunjin asked his question, without thinking twice. The question that changed Hyunjin's view towards Seungmin's feelings. The answer he was going to get was..... unexpected.

"What do you want Seungmin. What do you actually want in our relation?" Hyunjin buttered out. "Huh?" Seungmin asked confused. "You heard me, what do you actually want?"

'It's not like I'm going to do whatever he wants.' Hyunjin thought to himself. There was a moment of silence. Then Seungmin spoke up. It was as though he was picking each and every word carefully and after thinking it well.

"To be honest I don't want anything." I want you. "Even if we are to be in a relationship we will break up at some point." I wouldn't let that happen. "And I'm sure we would be awkward after that." More worse than we are face to face right now. "That way I would lose my love and friendship too." I will be ready to risk it because I would make you promise no matter happens our friendship stays intact. "I'm much happier this way." It hurts me to think I can never be yours nor can you be mine, I'm not happy.

Hyunjin let out a small "Oh." Seungmin didn't want to face it anymore. He lied. So he told Hyunjin. "I'm tired and thank you again for giving me a second chance. I'll keep my promise of never again letting our friendship break."

"You should better take rest. Bye." Hyunjin said.
"Bye love ya." Seungmin mumbled. Hyunjin stayed silent for a split second and replied with a "love you too." Seungmin could tell the smile from his voice. Hyunjin must have been happy to find everything is normal now.