Never Ending Story 《Seungjin FF》

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(A/N): Important note at the last of this chapter, read before you read the chapter itself. :) Enjoy~

Hyunjin was typing away on his laptop. Seungmin was trying hard to keep his eyes open. It was currently eleven o'clock and the project wasn't even finished half way. It was a lot of work, the tradition, genre of music, their taste and culture, everything! He had to report what was the difference between his and their culture.

Soon after filling up the report about their culture, Hyunjin felt a light weight on his shoulder. It was Seungmin, he had fallen asleep. Hyunjin smiled gently and whispered, "You've worked a lot today..." With that he slowly shut the laptop and carefully removed the younger's head from his shoulder. Being extra cautious not to wake him up he slowly carried him bridal style on his arms and walked towards his bed.

Just when he was placing him on his bed, Seungmin's phone started vibrating. Hyunjin placed him and pulled out the phone from his back pocket and felt his finger tips brush on his ass. It was soft, Hyunjin found himself blushing but the vibration snapped him out of his fantasies. It was Changbin, that brat. "Kim Seungmin did you propose that tall rascal?" Changbin whisper yelled, Oh might have thought Hyunjin might hear? "Jerk, it's me, Seungmin is asleep." The line went dead silent for a second then he heard a nervous laugh, "Hey..." Hyunjin rolled his eyes, "What's with the hey?"

Someone cleared his throat from the other line, Felix. "Um, so did you tell Seungmin you like him?" Hyunjin hurried towards the balcony, "No idiot!" Changbin's frown could be sensed from his voice, "Why?" Hyunjin went silent, "Because, I told him it's a friendly like not something else. Because I'm-"  "Jinnie?" Came Seungmin's sleepy voice. Hyunjin turned around and said good bye to Changbin and went to him, "Oh your phone rang and I answered, it was Changbin don't worry. I moved towards the balcony so that I wouldn't wake you up."

"Sorry did I fall asleep?" Seungmin asked with his sleepy slurring voice, "Aww cute." Seungmin he himself didn't know that he could blush even when he was half asleep but now he was fully awake because he was blushing furiously. "Uh, go to sleep it's late." He mumbled turning his back on Hyunjin. Hyunjin gently smiled and walked towards his bed, turning off the lights.

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"I'm so tired." Hyunjin said, stretching his arms once he submitted the project report to the teacher. "You worked really hard seems so." Felix said.

Hyunjin was back, his mother was sick because she was fussing over her son being gone. Hyunjin had to facepalm when she got healthy after she saw him.

Seungmin was moving on with his own life. Being in a relationship was quiet new for him but afterall, it did seem to work, because sometimes Seungmin forgot about Hyunjin entirely. But he was still not over him yet. Chan was giving his best.

"Hyunjin, I have to talk to you about Seungmin." Woojin asked Hyunjin over. "Yeah what's the matter? I feel like I'm getting interrogated by my parent." He half joked because Woojin was a parental figure for his friends. "Ok let me get to the point. Do you like Seungmin?" Hyunjin frowned," Do you want an honest answer from my perspective or the ones Changbin and Felix said after hearing my perspective?"

Woojin sighed, "Your original one and then I'm going to give you some advice about it okay? If it matches with Changlix then it will be great." Hyunjin nodded.

"Ok so let me keep things clear, whenever I think of Seungmin or his name, there is this block of label in my head called, 'Best friend,' I can't think of him more than that or at least I restrain myself thinking of him more than a bestie. He...is someone who I care for. Our meeting was quiet ordinary like in dramas and novels, in an isolated classroom. Back then I loved him so dearly, heart pounding in my chest with excitement as I met him or heard his name. Buying his snacks everyday. Hearing him talk and sharing secrets with him. Being frank, just...being with him made me so happy and filled my heart with warmth. I missed him even when weekend arrived and I couldn't see him. I told him I miss you more than thousand times on phone when we called eachother. He was really special to me after my sister Yeji. Soon, we talked 24/7 and his mother was furious. That time I didn't know how she was and all. But later she caused our break up, I mean friendship."

Woojin looked at him but when Hyunjin didn't continue, he got the point, it was his turn, "I'm not someone who goes into your mind or heart to exactly pin point the feeling down but as far as I have know you till now, I can only draw the line on one conclusion, you were in love with him or it was a fancy."

"That is exactly what Changlix said." Hyunjin said quietly. "Now that I think about it, it was an infatuation I guess." Hyunjin said, "Well after our fight, when he started having no connection with me, I was so hurt, it was like a blow on my heart. Soon I started releasing that we can't love someone forever. So the love was replaced by hatred. Until now, even as we made up, I couldn't let go of this. I couldn't forgive him. But I don't know why I still do care for him."

Woojin started at him in disbelief, "So this is all this is about? The past you can't move on from? Hear this young boy, Seungmin will be hurt hundred times more than he is now if he hears this. Yes it was his fault but at least you could've told him the honest answer why you don't like him back! It was because of your grudge. You can't move on?"

Hyunjin turned red with embarrassment, he did have grudge but, when he heard it out loud he was ashamed of himself. "Jinnie, I don't mean to say bad about you but, you have to learn to forgive. How much ever bad the person must have done, no one deserves hatred or pain when they are guilty for something they have done. Seungmin accepted it. But can't you just not see from your side of perspective and his too?

"He understands you so should you. He was pressure at the moment. What was he? Fifteen? Just a teen back then! For God's sake it was like nearly five years ago! Have you ever imagined how painful it is to have your own turned against you and your dream? He let go of his ambition, he started being an obedient child for them yet they never treasure him!

"He just wanted love, any love, parental or romantic, which his parents nor the girls he liked were able to give him! And you! Lied to him! He hates lies. Remember that Hyunjin, you might not be able to forgive him but even if this truth that has been unveiled today reaches Seungmin's ears, he will break. But he will still forgive you, you know why? Because he loves you so much. I understood why you didn't tell him, but he would've understood too if you had just been honest."

Hyunjin kept quiet feeling more guilty and hurt as tears rolled out from his eyes. "I'm sorry to hurt you Hyunjin but you have to know that the truth that is..." How could Woojin be so calm while explaining this to him? "Even if you betrayed him forever or lie to him, he will always forgive you. Always. It might ache his heart, break him for eternity but he never keeps grudges over people he loves. He might keep grudges if we ever lie to him or betray him badly...but you..."

Woojin turned around, not being able to see Hyunjin's crying sight anymore. "He would do anything to get you back even if you'll run away from him forever. He just loves you so much..."

The last sentence was barely audible but when Hyunjin heard this, he was sure of one thing.

He did love Seungmin too yet kept lying to himself when he realised it. The reason behind lying was simple, he was never in love with someone before. But in reality he was since the beginning until now...

To be continued...

(A/N): Directors actors or reviewers of movies often say that the actor has to convey the feeling of the character right? I feel the same is to be done in writing, feeling the character and imagining yourself in his/her place. Really writing this and imagining myself in both Hyunjin's and Seungmin's place made my heart ache and guilty.

Always try to imagine yourself in that place whenever you read a book, it opens your mind more wider and opens your understanding giving you more revelation than the writer he/herself.