Stay Away | BH

Chapter 12

Little trigger warning.
I wouldn't recommend it for people who aren't comfortable with the thought of suicide, self harm, very low self esteem.
(Words in this style is the past, just so you guys don't get confused)

I jump up from a bad dream, instantly forgetting what it was about. I glance to my right to see Jughead fast asleep. He lets out little snores as he sleeps peacefully next to me, his hair in messy curls.

I glance at the alarm clock on his night stand, 4:00 a.m.

I squeeze the blanket tightly feeling the slight urge to leave.

Once he sees who you truly are, he'll break your heart and leave you. They always do.

I close my eyes tightly whimpering into my hand.

Don't cry. Don't cry.

My eyes start to burn and I feel the familiar tug on my heart.

"Ugly. Worthless. Pathetic."

I still remember how he said it, how bitter he sounded. The way his eyes turned cold.

"Worthless piece of shit! I hope you go kill yourself! No one wants you, so go ahead, do it!"

I let out a little cry glancing at Jughead.

Watch him turn his back on you. Just like he did.

I feel a sharp pain in my heart as I struggle to calm down my cries.

"I can't believe you embarrassed me like that! Accusing shit in front of my co-workers!? How fucking dare you!"

I sit up hugging my knees.

"Why are you just sitting there? Stop crying it makes you look even more pathetic then you already are!"

I suck my breath in as Jughead moves around stirring up a little before falling back asleep.

"Stop! You gave me no other choice to cheat! You never have sex with me anymore! Imagine dating someone who is so fucking self conscious as you!" He hisses grabbing my chin surly making a bruise.

I feel Jughead shifting on the bed assuming he's asleep. But when he wraps his arms around me burying his head next to mine, I freeze. My breathing calming down a tad.

"Stop crying, I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry, is that what you wanted to hear? He mumbles as he puts a hand on my back.

"Please don't hurt me," I sob, not even sure he understood me. "I'm so sorry, please don't hurt me."

He doesn't say anything, he just wraps his arms tighter around me letting me know he's not going to leave me. I cry harder into his shirt, that I'm wearing.

"I will never, ever intentionally hurt you," he whispers. I calm down listening to the sweet little lies he tells me. "Come here," he lays me down pulling me close to his chest. He plays with my hair holding me tightly.

"I'm sorry," I choke out.

"What are you sorry for?" He whispers in my ear sending goosebumps all over.

"For waking you up, I didn't mean to," I sigh.

"Don't apologize for that," he rubs my arm. "You should've woken me up earlier, I can't bear the thought of you sitting there and crying."

"No, I shouldn't be here at all. Maybe I should just leave," I whisper hoping he didn't hear me.

He mumbles something before squeezing me tightly again. I close my eyes feeling myself start to doze off.