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Wednesday....... I can't feel anything anymore it hurts everything hurts. My body doesn't wanna process things and my mind feels numb. I just want to hug you but then it's suspicious and my plan is to act like I don't like you that's why I don't speak when we're in a group. I'm sorry I really am I just want you to be ok I want to be the reason you wake up in the morning but I'm not and I won't be so what do I do when all I need is you. Made myself sick earlier for the first time felt rubbish but at least I'm empty now, just eaten again it doesn't feel great probably gonna puke again. I wanna be ok and I want to tell someone but I haven't lost weight yet and I'm still ugly and disgusting I'm a disappointment to everyone and all I ever do is hurt people. I hurt you the person I care about, I've hurt you before and I'm sorry I promise you I'll never hurt you and I only wish you the best obviously I wish I was yours and I was the one you wanted but I'm not and that's something I'm gonna have to deal with again so that's fun.
