Now or Never

Chapter Nine: For Your Amusement.

"Do you know what it's like to doubt everything? To doubt whether you deserve what you have, the people you have. Do you know what it's like to ask yourself every day whether or not they still love you? Or if they ever did?"

"..do they?"

"Raekyung come ride the Ferris Wheel with me!" Jimin yelled looking back as he ran to get in line. "Okay okay!" Raekyung said chucking as she walked to get in line with him.

When it was there turn they hopped in, and the attendant pulled down the bar to buckle them in. As they started to move up Raekyung laid her head back against the purple seat letting out a sigh.

"Okay, what's wrong." Jimin said serious as he adjusted to look straight at her. lifting her head she looked at him and said, "Do you ever have this weird feeling where you want something so bad, but you also really don't want it to happen because you knew if it did, it would be chaos?"

"You have no idea." Jimin said still looking at her. He really did understand. He was in the same situation, he wanted to be more than just friends with her, but he knew it could never happen, it would be chaos, or would it?

"I wish I could just tell you everything.." She said quietly and sighed again. Looking out she watched the sunset. Another day, another night, another day to live unhappily. But it didn't have to be like that. If only she knew, life doesn't have to be as hard as people make it out to be. Sometimes the best way to be happy, is to remember that you have people that love you, that will help you no matter what, even if you don't think you do. But she couldn't remember that.

It didn't seem like that long to them when they had finally stopped. She was ready to be out of the "hot seat". Stepping off they were met with the other three.

"Raekyung!" Jungkook said instantly going towards her, "Wanna get some funnel cake with me?" He said happily jumping around cutely like a bunny. "Sure kook." She said laughing at his behavior.

He pulled his hand around her arm, dragging her along the gravel to the food truck. Jimin watched with a hint of jealousy in his blood. He kicked his foot slinging rocks against the fence waiting for the two to come back.

"What are you doing?" Yoona said walking towards him and handing him a red slushie.

He nodded his head towards Raekyung and Kook and he took the slushie and slurped it down.

"Them?" She pointed.

"Is it wrong that I'm jealous?" He mumbled not wanting to admit the truth.

"A little." Yoona admitted shrugging and walking towards Jimin to lean against the fence.

"What do you mean 'a little'?" He asked leaning back against the fence with her.

"Well let's lay it all out shall we," She handed him her drink causing his eyebrow to raise.

"Look," She pushed off the fence putting her hands out. "You one, like her, a lot, and two, you NEVER confessed, and it been two years Jimin!"

She crossed her arms glaring at him, "You shouldn't be jealous if you never put in the effort to tell her you actually like her. So you, seeing her with other guys, doesn't mean you get to be jealous. Because THAT," She said turning and pointing at jungkook, "That could have been you. But you won't take that chance because you don't want things to change."

She grabbed the slushie from his hands and walked off leaving him speechless, "You can't always expect to get what you want if you don't try!" she yelled with her back turned, having the last word.