the bully and the loner | tomtord

xii- i don't cry

i recently (not really recently, more like months ago) read this manga about this camboy and this other guy and they hit it up. yeah. it was great and i really liked the idea. in case you wanna read it its called 'BJ Alex' yep. id like to work on this concept and stuff.
(curse words are here, k byee)
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tom's pov

i finally got up from my long slumber. i slept like a log and it felt great. my fingers swept upon the clear glass screen of my phone. i picked it up and saw the time.

7:24 am

shit, i was late. my eyes widened and i did everything at once. i grabbed the nearest shirt and wore my dusty black jeans along with my usual blue hoodie. i sprayed perfume instead of taking a shower since i didn't have enough time to even do a quick rinse.

i ran to my school, it was a short jog so i was in school in no time.

i dashed towards my classroom. my sneakers made a squeaking noise due to the slippery tiles. i finally found my classroom's door and opened it.

i went in a different classroom. i blushed as if i had a really bad fever as the students inside laughed at me.

"wow, would you look at that?"

"hey, its tom from class d. haha!"

"what's he doing here?"

"can ya'll get his ass outta here? smells like gay."

that last comment hit me like lightning. it electrified me in a bad way. like the tip of my head to the last bit of my toe. i closed the door and walked to my class.

does he really know? who was it anyways?

i opened the door to my class. out of relief i was right, but the teacher glared at me and my heart was racing. don't tell me i'm going to get detention.

"ah, the star of the show. thomas, take a seat. i'll be assigning you more homework today."

i sighed and took a seat next to matt. he looked at me and notice my eyes.

"hey." he said with a hint of concern in his voice. "are you alright, its like you're going to cry."

he was right. there were unshed tears welling up in my eyes. but, for some reason, i was angry at the fact i'm so weak to be hurt by that comment.

"i don't cry, no!" i snarled back at him, venom laced in my voice.

he looked at me one last time. sadness was present in his eyes. and he finally focused his attention on the lesson

i felt guilt swallowing me whole. my fingers fumbled around as i focused too.

:::

i was walking towards my house when i hand grabbed mine. i was forcefully dragged to a dark aisle as i tried to let go. i was pinned to the wall when i saw a familiar face greeting my eyes.

"edd?"

he glared at me. "why the fuck did you hurt matt?"

i gulped, bile as rising up my throat as i remembered what i said to matt.

"i-i.. i didn't mean to.." my words trailed off as edd's eyes narrowed because of my half-assed response.

i don't want my friendship to be ruined because of some stupid mistake i did.

"i helped you to bond with tord and this is what you give in return?" he said with his words hurting me. "to hurt my boyfriend? is that what you want?"

"i... i didn't mean to! something just happened-"

"no! fuck off!" he said as he walked off to the distance.

"no! i didn't mean it!"

"i said, stop! go home, tom."

for the first time in my life. i cried. not because of failing grades or the abuse many years ago. but because of a friendship ruined by my own hands.

i slid down until i reached the cement and enveloped my head with my hands. tears streaking down my face.

what did i do to deserve this.

what did i do to make karma lash at me?

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oh boi. wats aboutta happen. oh no, poor tom tho. edd is just really protective and stuff. my poor little potato tho ;(

cheers!
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