"This will be a little discomforting but you shouldn't feel any pain. After this procedure you will experience severe cramping and major blood discharge. You can just wear a pad and change that out throughout the next few weeks like you would do with a regular period. No sexual intercourse for a month. Your body needs some time to heal while it discards this pregnancy" the doctor says as I have my legs spread apart and a overhead light shining straight on my private.
Tobias stands next to me holding my hand as I stare blankly.
My heart was telling me to choose me. That I had to think rationally about my decisions. I wanted this baby but I guess having babies is not for me.
My parents and Tobias's parents wait outside in the waiting room as my baby is literally being sucked out of me.
"Just a small discomfort here" the doctor says as she gets started with the procedure.
I wince at the feeling and squeeze Tobias's hand.
"It's okay tris. You're almost done" he says pushing hair out of my face as I feel the pain physically and emotionally.
He wipes my tears and I look up at him and witness his sad filled eyes.
When the procedure is over, he scoops me in his arms and lays with me as I continue to cry. I can't stop crying. I feel like I lost everything.
"What can I do to make this better" he whispers
"Just hold me" I whisper back
He runs his fingers through my hair and kisses my tear stained face.
"I love you so much. You mean the world to me. I don't know what I would have did without you" he whispers starting to cry a little
"I love you too" I quietly say back and we lay together like that all night.
When I'm finally allowed to leave, Tobias and I go back straight to bed and hold each other again.
I wake up and puke a few times in the middle of the night but that's just my body working through this stressful day.
He holds my hair every time and brings me a glass of water whenever I ask for it.
I wake up at 5 in the morning and decide I want to shower.
When he notices I've been in there for a while he comes in the shower with me fully dressed and realizes I've been crying the whole time instead of showering.
He picks up the soap and starts to wash me. This wasn't sexual in anyway. It's just Tobias being the best boyfriend.
He shampoos my hair and conditions it too. He wraps me in a towel and carries me bridal style back to bed.
I change info a robe and some underwear, then we lay back in bed together.
The next morning I wake up to Tobias sitting up in bed, wide awake with his hands on his face.
"Hey" I whisper to him, pulling his hands away from his face. He's been crying
"You don't have to cry alone. You can cry with me. We can cry together" I say and I begin to cry
He lets a few tears fall and then holds a hand to my face and kisses my head. He's being so strong for the both of us.
"What are you hungry for? I can make you whatever you want or I can pick something up" he says
"Whatever you want, I'm fine with. I'm not that hungry" I say and he nods hoping out of bed
He throws a pair of sweatpants on and a shirt. He gives me a quick kiss goodbye and leaves to get breakfast.
I scroll through my phone and look at everyone at the prom. Christina and all of Tobias's friend group loads my phone with messages. I know they're there but I'm not ready to answer them.
Tobias returns with pancakes and milkshakes from our favorite dinner, putting a small smile on my face.
"Are your parents home" I ask as we sit on his bed, mainly in silence, eating.
"They had to go to work. Something important was going on at the office" he says and I nod
"So did my parents. They were on the first flight back to their conference" I tell him
"It's not like I didn't just lose a baby or anything. They are never home so what's the point" I say and he puts his hand on mine
"If they could be here, I'm sure they would've stayed" he says and I look up at him a nod.
I take another bite of my pancake then I rush to the bathroom to throw up.
"I'm sorry you've been dealing with me all night. I hope this sickness passes soon" I say
"Its alright babe, that's what I'm here for" he says brushing hair out of my face
I wash my mouth and return with him back on the bed.
I put my food to the side and lay on his chest.
He rubs my hand up and down my back as we lay in silence and think.
"Do you think I'm ever allowed to get pregnant again. Every time I do, isn't the same thing just going to happen all over again" I whisper to him
"We can look into that? Check out what our options are moving forward for when we want to start our family" He says and I look up at him and stare lovingly at his eyes.
"Sorry for giving you such a hard time at He hospital. My mind was all over the place" I say and he kisses my head
"I'm sorry I was harsh. I was just scared. I didn't know what to do or what to say" he says
"It's over and done with. As much as this is going to live with us for the rest of our lives, I think we have to do our best to move on. You're graduating next week, that's something to look forward too. We will be in Hawaii in a few months. At least we have each other" I say and he can't help but kiss me.
I gently kiss him back but that's all. We can't get too heated, doctor's orders.
"I love you" he whispers against my back
"I love you too" I say and we end up falling asleep again.
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Divergent High
FanfictionTris is homeschooled and doesn't have many friends. When she's not home focusing on school, she hangs out with her long time best friend, Christina. Christina goes to the public high school in their town and invites tris to a high school party. Aft...
