Unchained Melody // Johnnyboy

Chapter 2

"My church offers no absolutes
She tells me worship in the bedroom
The only heaven I'll be sent to
Is when I'm alone with you"

Ponyboys POV

I've got it really bad for that boy.

Johnny Cade.

That name is enough to send shivers down my spine.

I love him. And it's killing me.

It takes everything I've got not to touch him. Just the touch of his skin is enough to calm me down. The warmth of his embrace and the weight of his body against mine could shut me up real quick. Oh, how I crave his lips against mine.

I'll never have that, though. He's not mine. He never will be mine. The world hates gays. I bet he does too.

I can't say I thing. I've gotta keep my mouth shut if I don't wanna get hurt.

But I can't help but pretend. But imagine. His soft lips against mine. The sweet taste lingering in my mouth. The touch of his skin against mine. His big, beautiful black eyes staring into mine, filled with love and passion. My hands touching his hair which he keeps like he had it in that church. Man, that church. It was just him and me. Alone. Heaven.

I want him.

A boy can dream. He'll never be mine.

I break away from my thoughts and turn my attention back to the movie. I'm here with my brothers and Two-Bit, and Two-Bits girl, Marcia. He says she's not like the other girls and he actually loves her. I watch them, jealous in a way. His arms around her and they're engaged in this weird conversation that I'd rather not speak of. They kiss, foreheads pressed together. I wish I could have that with Johnny.

Even if he did feel the same we wouldn't be able to show it. Being gay is seen as an abomination. Darry and Soda would hate me. Probably kick me out or send me to an asylum.

Darry's awkwardly trying to watch the movie, and Sodas waiting for Steve to get here. They're so inseparable it's annoying. I don't like Steve. But I tolerate him because he's my brothers friend.

I feel someone hit me in the head from behind, and I don't know whether to be scared or pop them in the jaw. I turn around and see Dally smirking at me. I flick him off and see Johnny and Steve behind him. Steve doesn't waste a second as he goes over to Soda. Johnny sits down next to me and lightly smiles at me.

"I'll give you two some space." Dally smirks and sits next to Darry, who shifts in his seat. Whatever that means. Johnny's blushing for some reason.

"Hey Pone, what's the movie supposed to be about?" I smirk. It's a horror film. I'm honestly surprised Darry let me see it. But it was Friday night and he had it off, so he took the time to come here. But if it's horror, Johnny might get scared and I'll have a reason to cuddle with him.

"It's a horror film. Supposed to be really gory." Gory films don't scare me anymore. Not after Johnny killed Bob to save me. I think that's what made me realize I had a crush on him. I mean, I've liked him ever since he got jumped when I just wanted to protect him, but it's turned to a burning passion. Sometimes I just wanna hug him so much that I go crazy.

"Oh, great." Johnny said sarcastically and shuddered. I laughed at him. He was so cute.

"Don't worry Johnnycake, I'll protect you." I wanted to put my arm around him but I didn't. I was too scared.

I heard Steve scoff but I ignored him. The movie went on, and I could see Johnny was getting freaked out. This movie really was creepy. Two-Bit and Marcia were laughing their asses off at it. Weirdos.

I put my arm around Johnny, and he rested his head on my shoulder. He was so adorable. I glance at Darry, and I see Dally leaning close to his ear and whispering something. Dally had a wide grin on his face.

He looked like he did that night he tried to pick up Cherry. But Darry was no broad. It was kind of funny to picture, though. Hardworking Darry, basically Superman, getting picked up by Dally, a wiseass hood. I laughed at the thought of it. It would be the other way around. Dally was tough, but I'd bet Darry could knock him out in one punch.

A few more minutes passed, before a girl walked over to us. I knew who she was. She was Angela Shepard, the sister of Tim and Curly. I wondered what she wanted.

"Hey Johnny." She said in a girly voice that made me want to gag. Johnny got off me, much to my disappointment. Why did this girl have to come now?

"Uhh...h-hey Angela." Since when do they talk? It made me jealous that he was talking to her and he seemed nervous? Did he like her?

"I won't stay for long, I've got somewhere to be. I was just wondering if you would want to come to the Winter Formal with me. You know, like a date." Yeah, she probably has to be at a party flirting with guys and having s- Wait. Did she just ask MY Johnny on a date?

Oh who was I kidding, I knew he wasn't mine. I was hoping and praying in that moment that he wouldn't say yes. That would break me.

"Oh...um...I'll think about it..." Johnny trailed off. At least he didn't say yes.

"Alright. See you later, doll." I felt more jealously boil inside me. I wanted to call him cutesy names like that. She left after that, thank god.

"Aww, little Johnny just got asked out. And by a Shepard girl too. Are you gonna day yes?" Soda asked. And I love him, but I wanted to slap him. This wasn't cute. It was annoying. Why can't he be mine?

If I said anything, he'd hate me. I wanted to cry. I wanted to punch something. But instead, I just sat there, digging my nails into my arm to keep myself from crying.

If he went to that stupid dance with Angela, my heart would break.

He probably wanted to go with her. Maybe I'd just have to go with someone else...

Johnny's POV

I did not want to go to that dance with Angela. I wanted to ask Ponyboy.

You see, when me and Dally reached the dingo, we saw Steve there. He was hanging out there before heading over to the nightly double to meet the rest of the gang, plus Two-Bits girl. I can't believe he managed to get a Soc girl. They sure were in love. I wish I had that with Ponyboy.

Anyways, he told me and Dallas about the dance in exactly a week. The school planned it at the last minute, but everyone was trying to get a date. Dally told him that I knew about him and Soda, but he didn't tell Steve I liked Ponyboy. He didn't wanna betray my trust. Well, I told him it was okay as long as he promises not to tell Ponyboy.

Well, we told him. And he started laughing and going on about how Two-Bit owes him five bucks. I just shook my head. They spent the next twenty minutes trying to convince me to ask Pony to the dance.

By the end of that, it actually worked. I was gonna ask him to the dance. I don't know when, but it had to be soon. He was good looking and I bet a bunch of girls would love to be with him.

When we got there, though, Angela asked me. Ponyboy looked disappointed. I don't know why. Maybe he wanted to go with her? Naw, I knew he thought she was a slut.

Steve looked at me with a knowing look. I could tell he wanted to tell Soda, but I knew he wouldn't. The guy could keep a secret. Dally was glaring at me from where he was trying to flirt with Darry. Dally decided he was gonna play the smooth approach. I doubt that would work on Darry, though.

I have to ask Ponyboy to the dance. I have to.

"No masters or kings when the ritual begins
There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin
In the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene
Only then I am human
Only then I am clean"