Risen from the Sea

Let it Out

After Aspen talked to me and told me about Amethyst, I started to walk slowly toward my cabin, and after I was out of his sight ran, tears streaming from my eyes. I ran straight to my cabin, ignoring the stares I was attracting from other campers. When I reached the cabin, I ran in slammed the door and bolted it. I sank to the floor, bawling, letting all my emotions out, and saying my problems.

"Ailee you fool! You should have known this would happen... But you let it happen anyway. You probably don't even really like him, you are just confused, in a new place, with all new people and he happened to be there. Plus after Steven you should know better than to let your feelings get a hold on you... You should never let this happen, love isn't for you..."

It felt good to finally say my feelings out loud, even if it was to no one, finally saying them helped remove a small part of the huge knot in my heart. I cried, and cried hard, I cried about everything. About Aspen, and I cried about Maya being chosen for this big quest and me coming with her and feeling like the life of the whole world was on our shoulders, which it pretty much was, and I cried about losing the only parents I had ever loved other than my own mother who I had not seen since I was three.

I had not allowed myself any feelings for that particular problem yet, and now it all came out, in both tears and words to the empty darkness around me. I had finally decided to let Aspen go, that I wouldn't care at all. I cried hard, and when I finally ran out of tears,I sat there, with almost no feeling, on the edge of reality. I was soon snapped out of my daze by Asher, "Wow Ailee, you seem to have a lot on your mind."

I look up and see him in the corner sitting on the floor arms crossed over his knees. "Sorry, you were not supposed to hear that... how much did you actually hear?" I asked him.

"All of it... but it's okay, I come here constantly to cry or just sit here and get my feelings out. And about Aspen... he seems nice enough and he probably is, but I don't know as your brother, well half-brother I worry, I feel like he has so much, so many people like him and he has so many friends and skills, that by having you, he would not care as much, he seems too good to be true, and I feel like he would break your heart, and I know we just met, but I don't want that, you are my sister and I hope we will get to know each other better."

"Its okay, and thank you... for caring about me and at least listening to me." After hearing Asher say that I felt like we would be close and that he may end up helping me through a lot, even though I did not like it. He and I were alike, not the same, but alike.

"Of course Ailee, I will always care and be here listen," Asher replied.

"Thank you," I managed to stammer before getting up and leaving the cabin. I was going down to the swords arena, might as well get some practice in before the quest, we were leaving on tomorrow.

I walked down to the sword area, and was about to unclip the bracelet on my wrist, in order to turn into a sword, when I heard a voice behind me. "Decided YOU might need a little practice, too?" it was Maya. I turn around to face her and she looks over at me and suddenly looks concerned, at first I was confused, then I remembered what just happened in my cabin.

"You have been crying, why?"

"What are you talking about? I have not been crying," I lied.

"Don't lie to me Delmare, I can see the reddish tint to your eyes, and your hair is stuck to the tears on your face. I know you have been crying, so don't lie, please tell me what's wrong?"

"First, I am Ailee, not Delmare, I left that name behind, that was the me who had no parents and no one wanted her, my name is Ailee now. And I... I was crying because I was stressed about the quest," I lied again, knowing she would find out eventually and decided to tell her, "and because I met Aspen's girlfriend Amethyst today..."

"Oh Ailee, I am so sorry!" I looked up surprised, having expected her to laugh or gripe at me for liking him in the first place."No really Ailee, I understand what it feels like, and I know it will get better." 

We sat there for a moment in silence and then moved on to sword fighting, which we continued to do until, we were called for to dinner by Azalea, and Kaitlyn, one of the Apollo girls.