Is God Real

Reality

Meeting Damien today really spoilt my mood but why would he come to see me , what does he mean by "I will always have what you never had just like I took away your most priced possession on Christmas Eve",
   "Could it be , no he wouldn't go that far, it was just a minor fight between us, he couldn't take things that far", I thought as I laid on my bed
  " No what if he was the one behind the accident, no way, why am I getting so upset, Damien is a liar that's what he always does", i thought as I felt so frustrated as I remembered my fight with my dad
  "How did you become this", he asked
"Dad it's nothing serious, I am not like the rest ",
   "A cult is a cult, there's no simpler way to describe it , you have to stop it ",he said
"No dad, I will not",
"Why are you destroying your life, your mum would be so upset to find out that her son is the leader of a cult, a cultist life is a life full of destruction and I don't want that for you son ,I don't want to lose you ",
"I'm not doing anything bad, dad, this is what everyone does ,why is my own so different",
"Because you are my son and my words are final leave the cult ",
"I can't" , I said then he slapped me
  "Bolu don't make me come back to hear that you are still a cultist, cultist are evil people, they end up with a broken life, I don't want you to be that kind of man ", he said as he turned to leave but he never came back , he died
  " YOU TELL ANYONE ABOUT US, WE TAKE SOMETHING CLOSE TO YOU", 
I never believed in this threat till today when I realized that my parents death wasn't by chance it was all planned by him, Damien
  "Hey Philip, get the guns", I said to my Beta
"Boss, I thought you quit", said Philip
"There's no words such as quitting in the dictionary of the lion of the jungle", I said as I took a long drag of the marijuana
  "They will never know what hits them by the time I'm done with them", I said out loud as I looked at the gun in my palm
  No one knows how I had survived losing my parents, this got me happy (looking at the marijuana) as I sat in a mess as I laughed , it was a painful laugh as I remembered how much I got addicted to the drug it was only because of a someone's girlfriend why I was happy for the past few days but now I don't even have the right to think about her, she's Ade's .
    That night marked the beginning of my doom as well as the moment I had lost control of my actions, perhaps it was I who killed Raymond or was it Ade I killed .
  Present:2020
"I can't remember what happened on the 16th July 2019", I said as I looked at them
  "Are you saying you killed Raymond in the state of being on drug, Mr Ezekiel ", asked one of the members
"I didn't, Raymond is like a brother to me", I said then they played the usual tape of me instructing my men to kill Raymond
"So Mr Ezekiel , is this not your voice", One of the members asked me smirking
   This is like history repeating itself as I found myself unable to explain how that was my voice but I never said such words, no matter how much I had screamed in the past telling them I was innocent, they never believed me so the best I could do at this moment to save my life was that I either tell them I said it and I would be allowed to remain alive no more death sentence or I continue to keep them informed I was innocent and I die in the next few days oh Lord what should I do, I'm really innocent, I didn't kill Raymond , I'm scared God I don't want to die yet, I want to get out of here, I'm sorry for leaving you years ago, I'm sorry for accusing you of being the reason why bad things happen to me, I'm sorry I stopped praying to you, for leaving you, please forgive me Lord, I want you to know that I love you but you have always loved me too much
   I have always remembered you my son, I still do now, so believe in  me
  I believe Lord,I believe
"Mr Ezekiel , this is your last appeal, do you have anything you wish to say to us",asked a member
"Yes, I am innocent", I said as I signalled to the warder I was ready to leave
  "Mr Ezekiel ,do you Know the consequence of your actions", asked one of the members
  "Who else other than me will be aware of it , thank you for listening to me all this while", I said then I left with a smile on my face