Is God Real

Truth is bitter.

   The loud music in the bar was ear deafening as we moved between bodies dancing the latest moves in town.
      Here is what every student look up to on a Friday night,it makes me so sad and disgusted by the activities carried out here especially the kind of lifestyle they all try to live. Many of them were sent to school from a good family and some not from a good family,in the absence of a parental guardian,they end up living their lives recklessly and not to forget each of them has a reason for living this way,a story so hidden and untold that no one would care to find out so they only end up judging them just like I am about to do.
        Across where I stood was a group of guys sitting on a sofa and before them was a  rectangular table and on it was series of white pouches - drugs.
      They were sniffing it like their lives depended on it not minding the consequences of the drugs on their body system. With them also seated on the sofa were ladies whose bodies were barely covered by the short gowns they wore and with the huge amount of makeup they wore made them look like clowns,they must be proud of their body because they always end up sleeping with guys who only value them for their bodies and once the guys get what they wanted by sleeping with them ,the ladies are left alone only to become the lastest conquest of the guys and they become center of discussion among the guys .
       Such a sad life. To be honest the main reason why most students sent to the university barely make it out in whole and in good shape is because they don't love themselves because if you love who you are ,what you are and who you want to be ,you won't do anything that will ruin that for you ,so many of them lack God,wisdom and focus.
     Now you wonder why there's a huge population of youths going astray due to : ignorance, low self-esteem,bad peer pressure, poor family background and a lot more. And most of them end up being a victim to : unwanted pregnancy, abortion, HIV & AIDS, STD,cultism,drug abuse,drug trafficking,robbery and a lot more.
         Live your life in a good way and the only way is when God is there to guide you ,not bad friends,not social media and definitely not you alone,that good way is having God in your life,the fear of God is the beginning of wisdom so if you fear God you will be wise to know what is good and bad. The way you live your life determines your tommorow,so try your best to live a life that you won't regret . Don't try to live your life to impress others , don't be shy to say no to bad advice from anyone, don't try to be like anyone ,do you know why🤷 it's because God made you special,He specifically sat down on the sixth day to create you ,if you go round the world you will find out that it's only an original of you in this world even your fingerprint matches no one,so why adulterate you ,why live a fake life and be a fake you , don't let  conditions define who you are not, because the best version of you is being you ❤️.
          So why am I here again.
  "Hey Testimony", someone shouted over the music from behind so I turned back to see Ade,I waved at him smiling.
      "Hi ",I shouted while he walked over to me.
     "I didn't think  you would come", said Ade grinning ear to ear.
         "I wouldn't miss your birthday party for the world eventhough I'm not a huge fan of loud parties and...
      He crashed his lips on mine to shut me up. The kiss was totally unexpected as my eyes widen as I didn't know how to react,this wasn't my first kiss especially with Ade ,at first I would always get this butterfly feeling but now I just don't feel anything, I felt nothing as I gently pulled myself away from him as I watched him frown but his facial expression changed before I could even blink.
        "I've been dying to do that all night,by the way you look beautiful",said Ade smiling .
    I didn't know what to say as I blushed eventhough I feel nothing in this relationship anymore.
    I couldn't break up with him over my one-sided feelings for Bolu,his friend and besides Ade is a great guy ,any lady in their right state of mind would die to have him as her boyfriend.
      "You are overthinking Testimony, Let's go", said Ade holding my hands as he pulled me along with him through the sweaty bodies.
     The large number of students here in the bar was not surprising since Ade's parents are quite wealthy so Ade is a rich boy.
      "Guys meet Testimony,my girlfriend", said Ade smiling as he pulled me closer to him by the waist.
      The stares I was getting made me nervous until I laid my eyes on the gorgeous species that made me so worried for the past two days for nothing thinking he was still in jail apparently he was not especially since he's having the best moment of his life kissing a lady who sat on his lap.
      I frozed for awhile trying to blink away the stupid tears about to betray me by rolling down my face. I didn't even know why it hurts so much to see him with another lady , I'm so stupid.
     If not for Ade's hands around my waist I would still be staring at Bolu.
     "Hi",I said as I tried to sound normal as I tried my best to not show how affected I was by Bolu's act with the lady.
      But I was so affected,hurt and left heartbroken.
Present:2020
       The look on his Bolu's face was very much worth it,I had to and it's because I had no choice,this is the way to save us.
       I just had to hurt him ,I just had to hurt the only man I have ever loved and I just had to do it so I could protect him.
       I have never felt more sad than the moment I had turned my back at Bolu,it was the agony,pain and sorrow that kept my tears at bay as I walked away and not taking a second to look back eventhough that's what I wanted to do.
     So I did what I had to do ,I left
    "I was thinking you would break down in tears " holding my hand as he buried his head in the crook of my neck which made me feel so disgusted,"and fall into his hands telling him you love him"slowly kissing my neck as I tried hard not to get upset and kick him where the sun doesn't shine"I must have doubted you for a second Testy, I'm sorry", said Damien as he held my chin
         He wants me to break down,he knows why I'm forced to do what I did, he's the manipulator,the murderer ,the one behind the scenes and calling the shots in this crazy nightmare and he just wants to have the last laugh.
        God what more do I have to do to save my baby, please help me.