How are you my mate?

chapter 14

She knew how much it hurt to hear the truth. She said it so venomously. My heart ached, I can hear it be repeated in my head, it's making my heart hurt worse every time.

I let her walk away. I felt like I just lost my chance to have a normal life with her. I just stared at her leaving body and did nothing.

Now I feel how it hurts to be crushed by my everything. I stood up and left a tip. The bell rang as I closed it.

I tried smelling her scent but came up nothing. She was too far for me to say anything. I pulled my hair in frustration and fell to the ground. She's different from the other girls. Then again I think she's perfect. This is the price I have to pay for her to be with me.

I'm glad she's her own self. I thought I already knew who the one was I guess they wanted me going the other way.

I shook my head at my stupidity. I knew the answer but I had to know for reals. This is what I deserve. Nothing can change her decision.

I thought that in the restaurant I could finally tell her my feelings. The truth of my love. Pour everything out but faith had other things in plan. I laughed hysterically.

Maybe I shouldn't even be hear being selfish. She needs me and I can't lose her. I stood up from the floor and walked to my car and drove her direction.

Amanda p.o.v

A tear slipped out. I quickly wiped it away in anger. He got his answer but why did I feel sick when I said it.

It's all this mate bond that's ruining everything. It's getting stronger by the minute. I think he's not denying the fact that I'm hear.

I should Stop thinking about him and focus on the road ahead of me. The light turned green and I kept driving.

For some reason I looked out of the window waiting for something, waiting for Matt to drive up to me and come for me. It was a stupid idea.

This urge was telling me to go back and say it was all a lie but it was the cold hard truth not a lie.

"You know he followed you for a reason. He chose to be with you all on his own." Skylar said.

"No he didn't, he probably ran into me. He was going somewhere else." I continued to tell her.

"You know the reason why he came and you know it. Who are you trying to convince ,you or me?" She replied.

"Technically we are both the same people. So I'm talking to myself. I don't know about trying to convince myself. Plus there could be another reason for this. Someone told him where I would be." I told her.

"Sure he had a little push to help him with the situation but people need help once in awhile. Like you for example. You need help to lose some of your weight. You accepted that you were overweight just like he accepted that he was in love with you." I was shocked at what she just said. I don't know if she right or not but it through me off real bad.

"Skylar I don't mean to be rude but can we stop arguing my head is hurting and I don't want to argue with you. So please can we stop?" I rubbed my head slowly to calm the thumping.

"OK but this is not over." she said with determination and then cut off the mindlink. I continued to drive ahead.

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I slowed down my car. They road was now a dirt road. I didn't want my car getting stuck so I just left it there.

I walked out the dirt crunching on the bottom of my feet. The wind was getting harder and I  sniffed the area and only smell woods. It smelled perfect. I spread my arms out. Spinning around and taking in deep breaths.