Totally (Tragic Love Series 1)

22nd

“Shh, it’s okay. I’m here. Cry your heart out. It will lessen the pain.”

I said I can move on, I will move on. I said I’ll never be affected anymore, yet failed.

An embrace from him, raised my hope. Hoping he feel the same I do. Yet, it was just nothing. I’m nothing.

I promised myself, this college I won’t feel jealous. I won’t waste a single tear.

Yet here I am. Crying on a guy’s shoulder. Sobbing as if a kid left by her parents. I wasn’t left by my parents, I was left by a guy I loved the most without even knowing my feelings.

And it hurts so damn much.

I prayed. I prayed that this pain would last. That this pain would disappear in a snap of a finger. But no, it takes time.

It will be a long time...

I went to the wishing well near the park. Took a coin from my pocket. I held it to my chest and closed my eyes.

“I wish I will move on. I hope I can find a guy who’ll love me inside and out. And will help me move on from my past.”

I threw the coin together with his coin.

“You okay?”

“I’m fine. I’m feeling better after wasting buckets of tears.”

We laughed. He asked me my wish and I told him. I asked his, the answer was...

“I hope you’ll LMAILY.”

It was awkward. I was just staring at him thinking what the abbreviation means.

“Can we go out tomorrow?”

“Sure. I need a break from all of these.”