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3. Maaz's POV

'Where are you going Maaz'? Miraaj ran after me just as I walked out the door. I thought my heart would explode. How did I let him die? Why did he come in front of me and took the bullet which was meant for me? My life had no purpose. Kabeer was the only reason which kept me going and now that my brother was gone what was the point of all this?

'Stay here' I warned him and got inside the car, but instead of going back he followed me and got inside the car. I started driving not knowing exactly where I was heading, this house, this life was feeling worthless, hollow and on top of that seeing Eman, a girl who was going to be my brother's wife, watching me as I forced her to marry me was slicing my heart. Kabeer asked for a promise when he was taking his last breaths in my arms. He asked me to protect her. She knew too much about our world, things she shouldn't have figured out, things that I tried to keep Kabeer out of. I purposely send him away from me...from us so he can get a normal life. I wanted to give him the life that I never had. I wanted him to study and live a good life far beyond my reach. He thought I could change for good one day, he came back several times after he became a doctor to take me away with him but I was drowned too much in this filthy life, my hands were bloodied...too dirty, I was afraid that my shadow will stain a light in his life and it did. I turned his dreams into a nightmare.

'Brother slow down' Miraaj's voice pulled me back from my dangerous thoughts and I stopped the car immediately and got out. I wanted to scream, but I chocked instead. The image of my brother's body passing away in front of my eyes played in my head like a horror movie. Kept playing again and again. Since the moment I first held my brother in my arms to the time when I kept his head against my chest as he lost his last set of breaths.

'Are you okay?' Miraaj came after me as I sat on the side of an empty dirt road.

I shouted instead. I wanted my voice to reach the sky, to my brother. I shouted again and again to the point when I started feeling pain in my throat.

'Maaz, what's done is done...it wasn't your fault, you tried to stop him...you told him to stay back, he followed you with his own will' Miraaj tried to explain it to me.

'No...I should have pushed him away. I should have done something...I should have' My voice cracked. No one had ever seen me break like that, Miraaj had been with me since the beginning, I trusted him like my own. He was loyal to me. I didn't mind losing my brain in front of him.

'I will kill him' I said to him.

'We have already killed his men' He told me.

'I want him, he set this up...he wanted me not my brother' I stared at Miraaj. I told him to keep me informed. The fire that I was feeling inside my heart would not cool down until I had the man who was behind all of this.

'No one knows where he is, we are on the lookout as soon as we find out where he is hiding we'll get him but until then you need to calm down, you know how fast words spread around here...we shouldn't be on anyone's radar right now' He advised me.

'He killed my brother...I will kill him' I yelled.

'I know the situation is difficult but we have to stick together' He said to me as he sat next to me.

'I don't know what to do; I don't know why it had to be this way' I closed my eyes and tried to take a deep breath. I could still hear my brother's voice in my ears.

'At least you kept his promise, you kept her safe' Miraaj referred to Eman, and I opened my eyes to look at him.

'Every time she looks at me, it pierces my heart...I deserve that, no problem' I said to him.

'You went against your uncle to save her' He reminded me.

'No one is above my brother, I will do anything to keep her safe even if she hates me' I thought of the moment when I asked her to marry me.

'There was no other way brother, uncle asked you to kill her because she knew too much about us, at least now that she is part of the family we can keep an eye on her, it's for her sake or else she would have been in much deep trouble' Miraaj expressed.

'It's hurting me badly, I just know that when I kill him only then I will feel some rest' I got up.

'Where are you going?' He asked me.

'I'll drop you home' I replied to him as we got inside the car.

'What about you? I'll come with you' He asked me with a concern on his face. He didn't trust me being alone.

'I want you to keep an eye her, make sure she's okay. Call me if anything happens' I told him when I stopped the car in front of the house.

'Okay, everything will work out' Miraaj said to me, trying to give me hope when there was none.

'What will work out?' I asked him instead. He stayed silent.

'Nothing will work out until I catch him' I nodded at him, telling him to leave so he exited the car. I started driving. The only thing rushing in my mind was what my brother experienced. He never harmed a single soul in his life and he ended up in dirt before me. Why did he chooseto save me when I had nothing to offer to this life? I brought no value in this world, then why was it that I was still breathing? I would never forgive myself and as long as I shall live, I will only suffer.

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Three updates to get you guys some taste of the story lol I hope you stick around...and again thank you so much my friends for your support <3

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