STAR CROSSED

28.

'The food was okay?' Maaz entered the kitchen after we had our dinner and I started cleaning around the dinning table.

'How many times do you want me to praise you?' I smirked at him. He continued to stare at me as I moved around the kitchen finishing cleaning and putting away stuff.

'Should I sleep in the living room then?' He asked suddenly and the cup I was washing slipped out of my hands in the sink.

'You can sleep anywhere you want?' I cleared my throat and continued with my work, but the feeling of him getting close to me picked up more and more as he took steady steps in my direction.

'I'd like to sleep here' I felt his lips close to my ears and arms circling around my waist pulling me into his back. I felt my body getting warm as he shifted the strands of my hair behind my ear for easy access.

'You have never been touched before' He commented near my ear and I closed the running tap water and covered my hand over his to remove them from my waist.

'Maaz please' I tried to fight off this feeling, but I felt drawn to him like crazy.

'No one touched you here...here...here...' His voice disappeared as he kissed my ear, moving down to my neck and then my exposed back.

'Tell me' He swiftly turned me around to face him, capturing me in between his hands.

'What about you...how many women...have you touched?' I questioned him, my heart burning with jealousy for women I had never seen or met but the thought of them touching him bothered me immensely.

'That was before you' He signed, pulling back to meet my longing eyes.

'I have never been touched before...but you have...tell me...if it were the other way around, would you have looked at me the same way?' I asked him for some reason. Why was I trying to subdue him or put him in a such a question? I didnt not know how or why the question flared up, and I could not take it back.

'I don't know...how can you ask me this when it's not real...ask me something that is and I will answer you' He calmly replied, unbothered by my integrating question which I thought would put him in a different mood, even made him distant from me but here he was still standing with his arounds around me, looking at me the same way.

'What if that night when you found me in that field...what if something...' I was about to ask him but before I could finish, he cut in.

'I would have slit his throat if had hurt you that night or anyone' He claimed with resentment as if he could still remember the face of the man who tried to abuse me that night.

'Don't say that' I replied touching his forearm to make him look at me again.

'I don't know why I asked you such questions' I covered my head with my hand, resting my back against the sink.

'Do you still think about that night?' He touched my hand and removed it from my face.

I nodded.

'Does it scare you...do I scare you?' He asked me carefully, observing my face.

'Maaz are you willing to try with me? I do not want you fall back into...I want to happy a good life. I never had that...for once in my life I really want something and that's you...and me...us being together' I told him leaning towards him and cupping his face with my hands.

'Am I going to be enough for you...will my presence be enough for you to not make the same mistakes you did before me?' I questioned him.

'You were and always will be enough for me' He completed and pressed his mouth over mine passionately. He demanded more and more as he closed all the distance between us and quickly lifted me in his arms. The urgency in his steps and uneven breaths as he led me to the bedroom gave me a new high on its own. I felt intoxicated in his arms and under his intense glances.

'Look at me' He struggled to keep his voice steady.

I opened my eyes and saw him above me; his face was strong and loving.

'I want you to look at me the same way I look at you...I want to feel that you want this as much as I do' He said as he delivered another alarming kiss on my neck. He pushed me further back into the bed with his hand under my waist and the rest of the night he not only touch my body, but my soul...all my secrets were now his...my pain and happiness...my future and my past belonged to him. When a woman gives her body to a man she loves and trusts, then it is not just physical for her anymore, instead it becomes a mentally and psychologically love affair for her.

The ache in my body was a sign of a significant night. I was lying down in Maaz's arms as he stared at the ceiling, drawing circles with his fingers on my lower back.

'What are you thinking?' I said softly.

'Was it how you thought it would be?' He asked me instead.

He moved his gaze from the ceiling to my face. I was looking at the man who had claimed my body and soul. He was the same man I loved yesterday before we laid on this bed but looking at him...it was different. He knew too much of me.

'I don't know...how was it for you...you've been with women before' I commented.

'It's not the same...with you its different...it's special when it means something, especially if that women is your wife' He kissed my forehead.

'You are a good man' I said gently, he glanced away when I said that.

'You deserved better...someone like Kabeer...someone good. I am not good, I have done things that are unforgivable but if there has even been a person that I want to belong to its you, for the rest of my life...until my last breath...it's you' He told me with attentiveness. His shoulders underneath my head draw me closer to him.

'You were supposed to be his...but under different circumstances if I had seen you first...I would have wanted you just as much as I want you right this moment' He continued.

'How can you say something that isn't real...that never happened' I repeated his words from before.

'Because it's you...if you see yourself from my eyes only then you'll realize what you have done to me...I am addicted to you...I crave for you...I...I never wanted to be loved or love someone and then out of nowhere you fell into my life and I just couldn't let you go...and then I felt it...something in me just wanted you close...I wanted you in my life...in my house...in my arms...in my bed...everywhere' He declared.

'You have me' I whispered. The corner of his mouth lifted when I said that, and he tilted his head in my direction and planted a gentle yet longing kiss on my lips.

'I think you have had enough for one night...I don't want you to not be able to walk tomorrow' He whispered back, and my mouth fell. He laughed, laugh that filled up the entire room. It was so bright and real that just seeing him like that make me smile. I could not help but laugh with him. His laughter dissolved into a smile and he stroked my hair.

'I want us to stay like this' I told him, as I closed my eyes. Feeling relaxed as his finger slowly brushed through my hair.

'We'll be okay, Eman. We have just started our journey...and there's so much ahead of us' He spoke more softly and continued to brush my hair until I feel asleep.

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