Come back to me

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omfg you have no idea how sorry i am for never updating anymore. im going to start updating more often now. school has been really F***king crazy and stressful. so yeah.

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bellamy:

i was sitting in my room banging my head against the wall for being so stupid and letting clarke go when i must have hit my head a little to hard and nocked myself out... i remember falling to the cold floor before everything went black.

*beep* *beep* *beep*

my eyes stuttered open and i was blinded by the light. once my eyes adjusted i noticed i was back in my room in mount weather. what? was that all a dream? had i never done that to clarke? only one way to find out i pulled myself out of bed and left my cell...i walked down the hallway towards clarkes cell and looked inside.

there she was sitting in her bed with her back facing me i smiled at the sight of her beautiful blonde hair. i opened her door slowly and she jumped turning around to look at me.

she didnt look like herself she looked sad her cheeks where wet with tears and her eyelashes shone with wetness. her usually bright blue eyes looked dark and lifless. i guess it was true then..i screwed everything up...

I had to talk to her...

I slowly opened the door her head jolted upward towards the door and when she saw me she tried to hide the fact that she had been crying.

"Clarke...I"

"Save it bellamy I don't want to hear your shit" she said cutting me off

I really screwed up...I wasn't fixing this one

But it was while I was standing there that I noticed something...she had a bandage around her left wrist...

Had she tried to kill herself?

"Clarke what happened to your arm"  i said cautiously

She looked at me with tears in her eyes.

"Bellamy I was in love with you...and you broke me into a million pieces...I wanted to die" she said tears now streaming down her face

All I could do was stand there
What had I done? I was the reason that clarke tried to kill herself.

"Clarke...I lied...I still love you. I never stopped, I wasn't using you for sex, I told you all that stuff because I'm not good enough for you...I fuck everything up " i blurted out before I could think about what I was saying she just sat there staring at me...

"Bellamy...you where the best thing that ever happened to me." She told me before closing her eyes and letting out a shaky breath

"But I don't know if I can ever forgive you"
Those words killed my heart

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ASDFGHJKL I'M A HORRIBLE PERSON I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING EXPLAIN HOW SORRY I AM FOR NOT UPDATING