Every day I ask myself.
I ask myself why you left.
I counted all the ways I could have went wrong and ask myself if I pushed you away.
I ask myself if you hate me and couldn't stand me and that's why you left.
I ask myself why you made that choice and didn't give me a second thought.
I ask why you come back.
I ask myself why I let you back in.
I ask myself if you'd ever stop these stupid games.
I ask myself if you know how much you hurt me.
I ask myself if you even remember the good old times.
I ask myself why you blame me for not staying.
I ask myself if I really did go wrong.
I ask myself if you changed over night or if you planned this all along.
I ask myself was it all really worth it.
I ask myself if I could really let go.
I ask if you came back could I push you away without a care since you do the same.
I ask myself why I care
But most importantly I ask myself why I can't just hate you and always forgive you.
I guess, yes, blood is thicker than water, but I cant keep hurting so I have to let go and move on with my life.
