turbulent//vinny mauro

10 - ʀᴇʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴꜱʜɪᴘꜱ

I couldn't stop thinking about it, about how I messed up.

I was just a piece of shit. An unfaithful piece a shit, a cheating piece of shit and an unloyal piece of shit.

Now he probably thinks I just played with his feelings.

I didn't. I liked him. But I had to be honest with him.

I didn't want to get into something with him without him knowing I was already with someone. I didn't want to be a liar. Even though I was being so much worse than a liar.

My pillow was soaked. The dry tears lines on my face felt like they were burning. My eyes hurt from crying to much.

But everybody knows nights after falling asleep crying are the best nights.

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[Vinny's point of view]

-Where is she ? Shane asked frowning.

I threw the pocket of weed at Ryan.

-She didn't feel too good so she stayed in the bus, I said while sitting down with them on the court.

-She seemed to be fine tho ? AJ said.

I shrugged.

I was mad and frustrated. I just didn't want to talk or do anything. I just... I don't know.

I couldn't believe she had a girlfriend. I thought I had my chance, honestly. 

But I guess I was wrong.

I'm tired of being taken as a joke.

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[Y/N's point of view]

I just woke up. It was almost ten. I got out of my bunk and went to the bathroom with my phone.

I put it on the sink and looked at the mirror. My makeup from yesterday was ruined and my mascara had flowed.

I washed my face and dried it with a towel. I looked back at the mirror.

I looked pathetic.

I had to ask help from one of bestfriends from New York. I couldn't ask for help from somebody here. It wasn't just right and just didn't want them to know.

I took my phone and texted her.

me: chloe please. I kinda fucked up really bad and I need your help

She instantaneously replied.

chloe: tell me everything I'm listening

me: you know I'm taking pictures at warped and my boss assigned me to the motionless in white bus. and you know what it means. and I kinda happened to kiss my ex. I literally don't know what to do anymore

chloe: nah dude fr ?

me: yeah. I don't know what to do about hailey and also about him. I feel like he hates me now

me: I mean after we kissed I told him I had a girlfriend. I thought he knew it but apparently he didn't

me: then he left and I went to bed crying. I just don't know what to do. I don't know if I should tell hailey or not. I don't know if I should break up with her or not. I'm so lost right now

chloe: so you like your ex, right?

me: I don't really know.

chloe: well, the situation is pretty complicated but I think you should take it easy. I mean I know it's hard to figure out what to do but if you think you should break up with hailey then do it. If you think it's better for you, go for it. do you still love her ?

me: I really don't know. we can't stop fighting and if I tell her I kissed my ex she's gonna riot. I can't understand that tho.

chloe: I don't know dude.. and I can't decide for you. just do what you think is better. but just know that if you want to talk I'm always here

I sighed and put my phone down on the sink.

I think I was gonna leave all this relationships shit and I was gonna just work. That's what I was supposed to do, first.