turbulent//vinny mauro

13 - ᴍɪꜱᴛᴀᴋᴇꜱ

hi!!!!!
long time no see :)
but I'm coming back😔✊
I just didn't have any motivation to post or write so yeah

maybe you should read the previous chapter(s) (or the whole story.....) before reading this one because maybe you forgot the story, I did too.....😳 anyways I hope you enjoy this chapter and I'm sorry for disappearing

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I only came back to the bus to get ready for tonight's party.

In reality, I didn't want to see anyone. A N Y O N E.

I just wanted to sleep.

Anyways. I had spent my afternoon thinking. And I picked a decision.

I was gonna break up with Hailey.

I don't think I still loved her.

Cause now I think I liked Vinny. Yeah. Vinny. It was so wrong to be in love with an ex. Especially when that ex hurt you like he did.
Even though it was the worst decision ever, I had to do it. Because our relationship was already toxic anyways.

I was gonna lose two years of relationship because of my ex, but I couldn't keep on dating Hailey knowing I cheated on her. Even though it was "just" a kiss I felt bad.

I wouldn't care if it was just a kiss.

But I cared because I enjoyed this kiss and because I had feeling for the person I kissed.

And it was wrong to feel that way when you were in a relationship.

I went to my bunk and took my phone, and started typing.

me: hailey listen. you know our relationship has been really weird lately. I don't text you as much as I used to because I realized something. I don't think I still have feelings for you. I'm sorry. I think we should cut it here. because I think I still have feelings for my ex. and I'm gonna be honest with you, I kissed him. I'm so sorry. you can hate me as much as you want. I hate me too. I just don't know what I'm doing. I'm sorry hailey.

And I sent it and put my phone under my pillow.

I was scared of how she would react.

I was being a piece of shit.

-Oh you're here, Dioseline said smiling at me. You didn't answer my text. I was worried.

-I'm sorry. I just... I just didn't feel like it.

She sighed.

-I know you're not alright.

-Yeah I'm not. I- I just broke up with Hailey. I feel so lost. Vinny probably hates me now. I don't know. I just want to disappear. I feel like shit, I said shaking my head.

-It's okay to feel lost. You should just get away with all that relationships shit. It's obviously fucking you up right now, she said nodding.

-That's not wrong. Thank you, I said weakly smiling at her.

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We arrived at the party. If I was being honest, I didn't want to be here.

But I needed to get drunk, so it was the perfect occasion.

Jaime and I put the beers on the table and I immediately took one.