Kennedy Kardashian

Chapter Thirty-Two

I woke up to what appeared to be a sticky note stuck to my forehead. I blinked a few times before pulling it off and examining what it said.

with some people from tour. didn't want to wake you

- G

I was annoyed. not only did I come all the way here to spend time with him he just up and left to hang out with 'people' from tour. He also signed it G... how odd and impersonal. Not once in our entire relationship had I ever called him "G" 

Jack had come to sleep in my room for the night and honestly I wish he hadn't. I spent the entire night replaying the fight... how convenient it was that everything was easily explained away, how angry he got at me when I brought it up. Nothing sat well with me but at the end of the day I had no idea what to think or believe anymore. Our relationship was on thin ice as it was... what if I was overreacting? that could ruin everything if I made this a thing, but if it wasn't all in my head and something really was going on I'll look stupid. I was at war with myself, I don't even recognise myself anymore... I used to know exactly what I felt and what I wanted but now I really don't.

I pulled myself out of bed and walked over to the balcony, one thing I was sure of was that this was one of the prettiest views that I've seen in awhile. I unlocked my phone and saw that I had a few notifications but one stood out. It was from Kendall, I hadn't seen her in the longest time.

Kendall 

Hey pretty girl!!

Ky told me you were in London!! Gigi and I are here for the next few days you should come see me!

I miss my booboo 😂😩

omg yes please!! haven't seen either of you in literally ages!

you sure jack won't mind if I steal you for a bit?? 

ha im pretty sure he wouldn't even notice

girl why? what happened? 

long story...

how's today??

today is great! 

Gigi and I are going to lunch later on probably around 2ish 

you down? 

yes! of course!

yay okay! were doing lunch at  Berner's Tavern 

see you for 2 then!! 

can't wait!

I had decided to not keep myself cooped up until two and that I should probably get out and do something. I wasn't sure what yet  but all  I knew was that I needed to leave this room. I had opened Instagram to see that my mother had posted a picture of her and True. I quickly locked my phone sat down and signed. Quickly closing my eyes.

"its too early for this" I spoke to myself 

She still hadn't reached out to me... I had not spoken to her in weeks. We had never gone this long without talking. Even in rehab she would find a way to communicate with me... whether it was flowers or a care package but nothing this time. I kept wondering if I had really done it this time, was this the final nail in the coffin of our relationship? she was my mother, after everything that happened between us I was genuinely surprised that this is what has her ignoring me. Everyone kept telling me that she would come around and I definitely thought she would but its been a long time and I don't think there's repairing this, not fully anyway.