privilege. seungjin

9.

seungmin paced around his room, his mother had spoke to him as soon as he got home from his outing with hyunjin and his friends, ruining his mood entirely.

tonight was his mother's annual get-together of customers and 'business partners', also known as, living hell for seungmin.

his mother said he was allowed to join the party, but the thought of seeing his mother in a raunchy dress talking to men twice her already older age disgusted him, so he opted to staying in his room.

so he paced, on the verge of crying as he thought of what his life has come to.

today had been so good for him, seeing hyunjin and meeting his friends, getting to apologize to jisung as that had been eating him up, meeting minho as hyunjin had spoken very fondly of the older boy over calls, it had all be so good.

and now he was thinking about his father, where was he? was he okay with mom's new job? obviously he is, he just couldn't imagine how broken his father must be, how much money it would take for him to feel okay again.

seungmin could not even begin to imagine.

how was he supposed to be okay with it? how was his dad okay with it? how was he supposed to handle it when he heard the voices of old men in his own house, he heard some of the things they were talking about from his room, he heard them speak about his mother as if she were an object.

he supposed she was at this point, selling herself to these men, and for what? for happiness? did this bring her happiness?

seungmin didn't believe that for a second, he saw the way his mothers eyes glazed over while on the phone with these perverts, he saw the way she looked when she was getting ready, almost as if she were only doing this because she had to.

and maybe she did have to, maybe it was her only option. seungmin hoped it wasn't, he hoped she wouldn't do anything beyond her comfort zone, that is if she even had one anymore, he hoped she knew that he'd do anything for her, that he'd work extra and pay all of the bills for her, that he'd work so hard that he'd have extra money to spoil her with.

but he couldn't just bring that up, no, he couldn't.

so, he just let her be, he put in his headphones and listened to his music at full volume, drowning out the disturbing voices of everyone in his house and eventually falling asleep to the thought of seeing hyunjin the next day, as it was a monday.