privilege. seungjin

13.

// !! tw !! basically rape & cursing
also sorry nctzens i love johnny so much

a soft light filtered into the room that seungmin found himself in, he couldn't place whose room this was, as he had never been in it before.

seungmin sat up and glanced around. the room was small, not an uncomfortable small, but still not huge. white curtains hung delicately in front of the window, a desk pushed neatly against the wall. a small cat tower stood in the corner, giving off a cute vibe to the neat room.

he noticed a picture frame on the desk and slowly rose to see who was in the picture.

he noticed hyunjin first, stood happily in between his two friends, jisung and minho. they all had goofy smiles on their faces while jisung made a kissy face at hyunjin. they seemed happy.

as seungmin was staring at the picture, the door to the room slowly opened, "oh, i see you're awake."

"minho hyung," seungmin acknowledged the voice and turned towards the older male, "how did i get here?"

"ah, i was waiting for sungie at clé and i saw you stumbling around, i was going to drive you home but you passed out before i could get your address, hyunjin was asleep too, so i just brought you back here."

"oh, i'm sorry for troubling you, hyung." seungmin said as he bowed slightly at minho, "thank you for not leaving me there."

"oh please, we're basically friends now, i'd never leave a friend of mine in that situation." minho brushed off seungmin's apology and smiled sweetly at the younger.

a smile erupted on seungmin's face as well, "what time is it?"

"it's nine a.m. right now, you didn't get much sleep." minho answered, taking the picture that was still clutched in seungmin's hand and placed it gently back on the desk, "we took that picture last year."

"where were you guys?" seungmin asked, turning to look at the picture with minho.

"the carnival, i had planned on confessing to jisung that night, but jisung was really clingy to hyunjin, so i didn't get the chance." minho rambled, a small, sad smile placed on his lips.

"oh? you like jisung?" seungmin asked, he assumed that much but never confirmed with the older.

"yeah, i have for a while now, don't get your hopes up though, min, i'm still single for now." minho winked at seungmin causing them both to burst into laughter.

"thanks for the offer, hyung, but i'm good." seungmin said, smiling brightly at minho.

"do you want me to drive you home?" minho asked after a few seconds of silence.

"sure," seungmin answered, "i hope i didn't ruin your night plan with jisung, though."

"you didn't, jisung couldn't make it anyway." minho chuckled, leading seungmin out of the room and to his car.

the ride was silent, aside from seungmin giving directions, it was peaceful. seungmin was glad he got to bond with hyunjin's friends more.

when minho dropped him off seungmin thanked the older and walked inside with a smile on his face, said smile fading completely when he saw an older male stood next to his mother, suddenly remembering the night before.

"seungmin, baby, meet johnny suh, he's the man who requested you." his mother introduced, "he'll be taking you to his house, okay?"

seungmin frowned but nodded, afraid of his mother hurting him again. he looked over to the male, johnny suh, and took in the olders appearance. he seemed nice enough, maybe he wouldn't hurt seungmin.

"hello kim seungmin, it's nice finally meeting you." johnny said, a polite smile on his face, he reached for the youngers hand and kissed it.

"hello." seungmin answered and pulled his hand away from johnny quickly.

"perfect, already friends, on you go!" his mother said, ushering the two males out of the house and to johnny's car.

the drive was horrible, seungmin couldn't relax as he knew what johnny wanted from him, he was silent and stiff the whole ride, begging the universe he wouldn't actually have to spend his time with johnny.

it was now eleven in the morning, they arrived at johnny's house, the older had seungmin's wrist in his hand as he pulled the younger into his house.

he pushed seungmin against the now closed door, pulling the younger into an unwilling kiss.

seungmin's eyes started to water as the older male's hands roamed around the smaller's body. he desperately wanted to pull out of the kiss, he needed to breathe, he needed to get away from this man, but johnny's grip was tight on his waist, restricting his movements.

"oh god, you're so sexy, seungmin." johnny muttered as he broke the kiss.

tears flowed freely now as johnny dragged him to the couch placed neatly in the older's living room. johnny climbed on top of him and started kissing him again.

he kissed along his neck as seungmin squirmed to get out of his grip, silently begging him to stop.

that's when a big hand came in contact with his face harshly.

"stop fucking moving, seungmin." johnny growled as he removed seungmin's shirt, going down to kiss the younger boys chest.

"johnny please, stop." seungmin begged, his voice breaking as tears streamed down his face.

"i paid for this shit, stop crying." johnny hissed against seungmin's chest, ripping his own shirt off and staring into the smaller's eyes, "you'll do as i say, got it?"

and so, on it went. seungmin's face was covered in, now, dried tears and dried blood, as the older hit him quite a lot. seungmin's eyes void of anything as he stared up at the ceiling, letting his body get abused by the older male as he had given up trying, knowing he was too weak to fend off johnny.

by the end of it, seungmin was thrown johnny's shirt and underwear, after he was forced to put it on, johnny drove him home.

the time now, four in the afternoon, he arrived at home, and saw hyunjin in his living-room with his mother, they conversed quietly, clearly waiting for seungmin.

that's when he broke.