Saving Faith [Selena Gomez, James Franco, Justin Bieber]

When Love...

Faith

Day One of Survival

Three people are standing before me. In few minutes, I will be inside and I will be able to see him. My heart is beating fast and I am feeling butterflies swimming around my heart. God! I missed him. 

"M'am, your papers please!" A man says over a mic as he extends his hand towards me. 

I give him my ID and other papers, then he asks me to go through a security machine. He asks me to hand over all my belongings. Another officer meets me by the electric door and leads me through a dim corridor. After a while I reach a room with a "Private" tag on the door. 

The office opens the door for me and I get in. I slowly walk to the table by the corner of  the room and sit on the chair. I wait because it's all I can do for now. My hands are shaking so I try to subside this feeling by pushing them into my lap. 

 Another door opens up and Joseph is walking in with cuffs around his hands and legs. Our eyes meet and, he smiles at me. The officer take off the hands and legs cuffs, then walks outside the room. 

I stand up and walk towards him, my hand are strongly wrapped around his neck as soon as I reach him. His hands are around me, his face buried into my neck.

"I miss you Angle." Joseph whispers softly

"I miss you too, Joseph!" I whisper back

He pulls back and looks at me. His eyes are roaming over my lips. "I like it when you say my name. I never get tired of hearing it coming out of this sweet, sweet mouth!" He says putting his lips over mine. And, we kiss forever! At least that's how I feel.

He plants one more kiss on my cheek and, then we walk towards the table. We sit across each other, with our hands intertwined. 

"How do you feel? Do you still feel dizzy?" He starts questioning me. I laugh putting my free hand over his mouth. 

"Slow down!" I tell him, "I am all good and, I don't feel dizzy anymore, but the morning sickness is still there and I hate it." 

His hands cover my face and brushes his thump over my cheek. "I hate not being with you through all of it."

"I hate being trapped here and not being by your side. I feel like I am giving up on all my promises to you. I can't imagine how I am going to spend the rest of .... God! it's a long time, I don't even remember how much it is!" 

"15 years!" I whisper, "Don't worry, I will be okay. I am taking care of myself, also, Kate and Brian are taking care of me." I add touching his face, trying to reassure him.

He exhales slowly and drops his head to the table. My heart drops with it and I lean in covering his head with my both hands, massaging his scalp. I lean further and I kiss him on the head. I know how painful for him to not be outside with me. I am feeling the same but I try to keep it all together because I am carrying a life inside of me and, also I am trying to be strong for Joseph. He needs all the strength in the world. His friends are doing great job of keeping me company and helping me through it all. 

"I love you Joseph" I tell him loudly, "I am not going anyway. You are my life and, I am planning to live for a long time." 

He looks up and I can see that he is thinking about that day when he pulled the trigger and killed Jason. He is thinking about the police and about the mess he has caused! We had caused!

"I should have just left." he murmurs "We should have got into that car and left. He wouldn't have followed us. But, I was stupid! Fucking reckless! If I just have left, we would have been together! And, you wouldn't be here today! You wouldn't be obliged to come visit me in this fucking dumpster of a place!" 

"I told you to stop thinking about that! It was bound to happen. Please promise me to keep it together and to survive in the inside as I am surviving the outside." I tell him

He stands up and pulls me into a tight hug. 

"I promise! I love you Angle. I love you more than anything in this world." 

Then we kiss like it's our last! We always kiss this way when I come to visit him. He puts a hand over my belly as he keeps kissing me. I pull back for air as he does. 

"Promise me that after 15 years we will meet outside of this place like time has never passed. Like it's our first time falling in love with each other. Promise me to not break my heart Angle."

I cup his face between my hands and pull him closer to me, then I move my hand over his heart.

"This heart is mine," I tell him then I put his hand over my chest, "And, this heart is yours forever."

The electric door opens and the same officer who guided me here enters the room.

"The visit is over M'am" he firmly announces.

I hug Joseph tightly and I plant a kiss on his lips. He tells me to take care of myself and I ask him to do the same. Another officer comes behind him and pulls him away, putting the cuffs back on him. 

Our eyes never leave each others as I walk out of the room and before the door closes Joseph says "I love you Angle" out loud and I say it back even louder, hoping my voice will penetrate the metal door.

Who said love is easy? Who said love is not struggle? 

Love is all the above, but when you love strong enough to let it crush your bones you will survive anything. When love is wider than the sky above you will make it through life stronger and wiser. When love is true, you will stand tall facing life's hardships and struggles. 

And, I love Joseph as strong, as wide and as true.