Can you re-love a cheater?

3

Irene sat in a solo interview, her heart restless as she sat in front of thousands of fans and a host who watched her. She was visibly uncomfortable but as the producer of the live interview shouted action, her composure plastered itself on her face. She smiled as the host introduced her earning screams to erupt as she waved to those around her. The host shook her hand signalling her to take a seat. "Welcome Irene, it's a pleasure to finally get to do an interview with you." Irene smiled at her as she continued. " So last Friday you dropped a stunning album called perspective..." fans again cheered as she looked at them, laughing "it's practically broken the internet, not to mention the red velvet album as well..." Irene nodded answering "yeah we've been pretty busy the last few months." " In the last interview you did with the girls they said that you wrote all of the songs and basically choreographed everything..." Irene nodded "Work is something that I love. I'm passionate about it and SM have finally given me the heads up to say yeah you can do what you want, they have given me a pair of legs to stand on, so we sat in a room and I just presented the concepts, which they happened to love. I'd call myself a forward thinker with out sounding to egotistical but I basically designated everything in advance and made the concepts for the video so what we actually had to do was quite minimal..." the host nodded. "So perspective is being loved by so many people, you've broken records with one million views and streams in one hour of release, but some are confused about the concept could you explain..." "Yeah sure, it's good that you guys are confused; that was the whole point. This is basically a relationship that has ran its course, the pain and struggle that you have to hold on to the relationship is what I've tried to capture. perspective is supposed to be ambiguous because you don't know whether your getting my perspective or his. The first three songs are what I imagine to be his thoughts since I didn't receive any form of closure  and so the idea is that this is what I imagine he would say to me, blurred with my perception as well. The last two songs however are distinctively mine... so yeah that was the idea behind it." Fans broke into applause as the host spoke, "I think that your concept is something that has never been done in this industry, the creativeness that you've applied to not only your stuff but the red velvet stuff is different and universal and people are loving it. The last video of the album that shows you crying...I think it broke everyone." Irene smiled softly. "Yeah I mean my idea behind this was quite simple, people label me as this ice queen that seems to have no real emotion but the whole point of this video in particular was to show other wise that there is a part of me that is vulnerable and I do get hurt, I just don't show it because I have so many responsibilities, my suffering and pain is secondary in my opinion. my girls come first for me and that's why I am the way that I am because they need me to be strong, if I'm not things will begin to fall apart. I've just come out of a relationship and so the story I'm showing is my story, and I wanted people to be able to truly connect with my words and those emotions can't be faked, it's pure and that's the beauty of it. And that's why I wanted to show something raw." The host nodded in understanding before abruptly asking "Wait, you were in a relationship?" Irene nervously laughed. "Yeah I was, I have been for the past three years." Loud gasps were heard. "Could you maybe give an insight into the relationship?" "Yeah sure, but I'm not giving any names because we are obviously not together anymore and that's not fair for me to showcase a relationship that was for majority of it between two people so I hope that fans can accept that..." The host nodded as Irene took a deep breath, "I met him in accordance to an event that was work related, and I felt myself smiling in his presence and that's hard for people to accomplish as you all know..." the host and fans laughed as she continued. "We kind of danced around each other, after the event we stayed in contact and interacted away from the cameras and that's how no speculation rose. He was amazing, he was my best friend. My hero and my lover all in one. I'm not gonna go into minute detail but he helped me with emotions that I hid, he helped me talk about them and express them in a way that I was previously reluctant to do. He fixed me essentially through his love by teaching me to love myself, he was there whenever I needed him, through the darkest of times when I felt my world crumble he held the weight for me. And I'd say we like that for each other but at the start he was like a saving grace for me, I had prayed for someone at night to take away the pain that I was constantly feeling and I'm telling you god does exist because he sent me him at a time when I was falling so deep. Our relationship was never simple...some people didn't agree to it and whilst that was only a small minority some friendships were destroyed in the process but we were young and in love and we only cared about that love we had for each other. And everything was perfect until it wasn't. Work was getting busy for the both of us and that's when things fell apart. He started missing my calls and messages and he'd stand me up on dates when we could finally get to meet. He'd call me when he needed to download but would no longer pick up when I needed him. A few weeks ago I was at his party with his mates and that's basically where I found him with another woman right in front of my eyes cheating on me on my birthday. " the audience sat there stunned as Irene turned around wiping a loose tear before forcing a smile. The host returned the smile which Irene was greatful for "So where does that leave you now?" She questioned. "Part of me is obviously angry, I would never condone cheating because you make another person question why they weren't good enough or why they weren't enough and I never got given the answers and closure that I need.
It's still fresh it's only been four weeks and I'm trying to focus on other things but there's part of my heart that won't let go and it's because I still love him. After everything, I still love him but I can't look at him anymore... a part of my heart will forever have his name on it, I can't escape that, I can learn to live with it and I will but trust is vital in any real relationship, that's your main foundation, and through that you have communication and understanding being built and I've lost that foundation, and trust is one of those things that can't really be repaired. My priorities are different now, I have a lot going on and I'm happy with that because by immersing myself in work I'm not giving me heart time to think about him. And I know that with the amazing people around me, that I'll get through it." The audience stood up in applause as the host wrapped up the remainder of the interview, Irene leaving shortly after.