03;56
shame. embarrassment.
their eyes on me. your lips on mine. your arms around me.
come on now, they're all staring! do it! do it! make him watch! make him look at how little you care! let them all know you're dating the hottest girl around!
because at the end of the day that's what they all really want. that's why you could never say no - wow! such a great opportunity! the hot girl is in love with me. the one everyone wants. everybody's muse. how could i say no? everyone will think i'm out of my mind!
because i'm not human, and that's why i let you treat me like this. because i really don't feel when it's fake anymore
because the fakest- the most comforting it feels
because the shittier - the more it feels like home
because the more lies you feed me - the more i can read you and sink in my seat realizing that you could never love me - you're just like everyone else who grasped me before - and tried to keep me on a leash
i'm not your fucking dog
