03;55
yes, i am
the dumbest human alive, maybe
but im so sorry, i cant help it
that night, you said you tried to love me back - i still don't get it, though
but now i do - because it's what i try to do every time - i try not to jump at my phone when it lights up - i try not to fantasize about your arms around me - i try not to think of your soft fingers intertwined in mine - softly embracing them and caressing mine - i try not to think of you looking at my face - expecting - deciding whether you should kiss my lips or not - i try not to let your face pop up in my mind and i try to stop the butterflies in my lungs when i think of your smile -
and i try not to think of how human i feel whenever you hold me - white ferrari playing softly in the background
your head on my chest
i was staring at your ceiling
and i was crying, i was crying - and it was getting so hard to keep quiet
you'll never love me like i love you
and you say im fantastic and amazing - but i know you'll never adore me like i adore you
i know you'll never love me, and that's
ok with me
i know you don't care for me, and that's ok with me
i know you only think of him, and that's ok with me
everything's ok
because i feel real when you hold my hand
and yes, maybe im dumb - the dumbest human being on earth - but i'm so sorry, i can't help it that i'm desperately in love with your beautiful human form -
