𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐅𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍

05

❝ What is this? It's music to get a brain seizure by. ❞

69 days of summer remaining

"Have you lost your mind?!" 

Marie scolded, staring up at June with wide-eyes. "Absolutely not!"

"It's just the drive-in! Plus I won't be the only girl, Daphne will be there too!"

Both stared down at the crumbled movie poster on the dining room table, June with anticipation and Marie with horror. 'IF YOU'VE GOT A TASTE  FOR TERROR . . . TAKE CARRIE TO THE PROM.' 

"You can go out and watch those satanic films when you're under your own roof."

June scoffed, snatching the poster and stuffing it in the pocket of her jeans before her mother could burn it. "Satanic?! God mom, it's hardly a thriller!" 

"I said no and that's final." 

Marie's attention shifted back towards the television while June stood seething behind her. 

"You are ridiculous!" The words slipped from her mouth before she could think them through, a wince rippling throughout her body as Marie slowly turned back to face her. She had never spoken to anyone that way before, much less her own mother.

"I've had enough of your smart mouth." Marie hollered while nearing her daughter. "You do not get to speak to me that way, I am your mother. Room now."

June knew it was best of her to submit, to sink to her knees and beg for forgiveness - something she had grown familiar to. She had never spoken her mind before and now that her virgin tongue had gotten its first taste of it she couldn't shut up if she tried. "I am not a child, you can't just send me off whenever you don't feel like talking anymore. Why can't you ever compromise?!"

"I can do whatever I feel like in my house. Until you're paying bills, what you think will mean nothing to me." Marie spat without much regard to her own words, unaware of the hell she had just released. "If you don't like it here, you are free to leave."

Anger. June had surely felt it before. Whenever her records skipped during her favorite part of a song or whenever Daphne interrupted her in the middle of speaking - when Marie drove her father insane with her fanaticism and caused him to move out. Anger. This was not a new concept. What terrified her was the alien urge to express it - the unnerving, foreign itch to let them have it. She was going to see that movie.

June mumbled a curse under her breath as she swung her coat over her shoulders, planning to go see that movie - ready to let her mother have it good if she tried to stop her.

"You're not a child, remember? Why don't you stop acting like one and speak up? You want to be treated like an adult, you can talk to me to my face not under your breath."

"I said that you're a crazy bitch." 

✞

One thing was for sure, June had not thought this through. The severity of her actions didn't occur to her until she was already at the drive-in and half the movie had gone by. 

She had yet to discuss her outburst with Daphne even though she sat only a few inches away. No, she wanted to enjoy the movie first . . . this was what all the mayhem was for right, the movie? The real horror could be released once the credits rolled. For now, she enjoyed the movie. 

A shudder left her body as a hand touched her shoulder. "Come get a coke with me?"

June followed Jonathan out of the car to the convention stand where he bought them both a coke and a pack of Twizzlers to share. 

"I thought you said you weren't afraid of these things," Jonathan laughed, pulling out a twizzler and sticking it in the side of his mouth like a stick of tobacco. He reminded the young girl of the black n' white cowboys her father would watch on Sunday afternoons. "You were gripping the seat so tight you left claw marks on the side."

June laughed along with him, relieving a bit of her stress for the first time that night. "I'm not, I've just . . . I've got something on my mind is all." She focused on the taste of the twizzlers, ignoring the searing hot touch his hand left on her shoulder.

"Must be pretty serious if its got you clawing through leather seats." 

She stood silently for a while, choosing her words carefully, not wanting to make more of a fool of herself. "If I tell you . . . you have to promise not to judge me."

"I've got no room to judge, go on." 

One purse to the lips and a deep breath later, she finally spilt. "I think I've kicked myself out of my own house."

Before June could even get her second sentence out she was cut off by loud, bellowing laughter. "Hey!" She scolded, glaring into his back while he was hunched over catching his breath. "You said you wouldn't judge."

"I'm not, I'm not!" He spluttered in between gulps of air. "It's just- How do you think you got yourself kicked out?"

June took refuge in laughing at her dilemma, not realizing just how foolish the entire situation was until Jonathan pointed it out. "It's a long, crazy story."

"Well do you need a place to stay for the night? I don't mind really."

She immediately shook her head no, shutting him down immediately. "My mother would kill me if she ever found out I slept over at a boy's house." I think I'd die if I ever slept over at a boy's house, she thought.

"I don't think she can kick you out twice, can she?"

( june's playlist )
wheels of confusion black sabbath • am i evil diamond head • no one like you scorpions • a national acrobat black sabbath • escape metallica • nib black sabbath • (don't fear) the reaper blue öyster cult • burnin' for you blue öyster cult

( daphne's playlist )
you don't own me leslie gore • twist and shout the beatles • bang bang my baby shot me down nancy sinatra • helter skelter the beatles • i can't get no (satisfaction) the rolling stones • pretty woman roy orbison • be my baby the ronettes • brown eyed girl van morrison

( jonathan's playlist )
comfortably numb pink floyd • black sabbath black sabbath • fortunate son creedence clearwater revival • hey hey what can i do led zeppelin • changes black sabbath • young lust pink floyd • tiny dancer elton john • carry on my wayward son kansas

( charlie's playlist )
surrender cheap trick • you really got me the kinks • just what i needed the cars • painkiller judas priest • strutter kiss • iron man black sabbath • bennie and the jets elton john • stranglehold ted nugent