Once Upon A Dream

Chapter Four

              I trudged into the house and plopped myself on the couch. My mom came in from the kitchen and sat down next to me.

"How was ya' day baby-girl?" She asks. I sigh and let my head fall back against the pillow.

"I talked to Alex." I say. She sits up straight and stares at me intently, waiting to hear what I would say next. "He honestly didn't know. He didn't know, he didn't know about anything." I say softly, my voice cracking every now and then. She pulls me into a warm hug and I begin to cry. 

A few hours later, I get a text from Alex. He wanted to see me and I wasn’t exactly sure how I felt about that. I mean, yeah, a part of me still cared about him. I guess I was just mostly angry that he left me. I had felt used and taken advantage of. I sigh and decide that I need some advice. I’m not sure if I wanna call Cara. I aint mad at her, I’m just still hurt. She didn’t do anything to me, it’s just the fact that she delivered two healthy babies and I lost one.

I decide to just call Becca and see what she thinks.

“Hey girlie, what’s up?” She says into the phone.

“I just kinda need someone to talk to.” I say. There was a silence on the other end and I just waited.

“Alright, what’s the problem?” She says.

“Well, I started school today…”

“Really? Wow, how was it?”

“Hard, really hard.”

“Oh, well, how did everyone treat you?”

“A lot of people stared at me a lot. But other than that, I guess they were fine.”

“Oh.” She says. I can tell she’s a little uncomfortable. I know she doesn’t really know what to say. I can tell that she’s really cautious not to say anything stupid. And that just made me feel worse. It was like she, along with everyone else, was tip-toeing around me; trying not to hurt me in anyway.

“It’s Alex.” I say softly. I know she heard me because she mumbles ‘oh God’ under her breath.

“What happened? Did he know? Was he a jerk about it?” She asks. I sigh and shake my head even though she can’t see.

“He didn’t know about anything! Most of the people in school knew so I figured that he did too. But nope…”

“Wow, for real? That’s insane…So did you two talk?”

“Yeah, at first I yelled at him. But then when I told him, I broke down completely. I wanted to stay strong, ya’ know? I didn’t want him to see me all pathetic.”

“Well you can’t help that Ava, you lost your baby. As much as you try, you can’t pretend to be strong in front of him.” She says. I know she’s right, but it’s just really hard to allow a guy to see me like that. Especially him!

“I know…So, after we talked n’ stuff, he hugged me. And I hate to admit it but-”

“No. Ava, I’m saying this as you’re friend. Don’t give in!” She says. I sigh, knowing she’s right.

“He wants to see me…” I say.

“See you?? Whachyah mean by that? Like, dating!?” She says frantically.

“No! Like, look at me in person?” I say.

“Oh, well, no to that too.” She says.

“What? Why?”

“Because Ava! Knowing you, you’ll end up falling for him all over again! Just trust me on this one!” She says.

“But Becs, I already did. I still love him! I can’t blame him for reacting the way he did. I mean, yah it was kinda harsh, but it makes sense, we weren’t even dating that long!”