For Us

Chapter XII

Same old

Hoping for better days,

It's gonna be okay.

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Namjoon explained somethings to Jin and left somethings out. Explaining the loop to him was out of question but he told him how the bond worked, how he heard her thoughts like they were his own and how it was difficult to differentiate between his own thoughts and hers.

He didn't tell Jin how different things were now... How randomly he was able to see a fragment of her world... How he felt her extreme emotions weighing on him and leaving him defenceless.

Jin tried his best to understand and to some extent he did. He then started to wonder if he had a bond so precious with someone too.

"How do you try to make her feel better? Do you transmit something happy to her?"

"I try my best... I listen to some upbeat songs to hype myself which floods my mind with ease and joy... Then it becomes simple to think about something nice and soothing." Namjoon said it do casually that Jin felt helpless that he wasn't able to aid him before.

"You should've told us earlier! You've got so much on yourself!"

Namjoon wanted to tell him that he told them. He confided with them many times but he remembered that it was almost 70 loops ago. Namjoon gave up telling everyone about his bond as it was redundant.

He felt something was amiss but tried to dismiss it, "I'll keep that in mind hyung... Let's go back. We have to leave soon, don't we? We still have a practice scheduled." Swiftly ending the talk, Namjoon prepares to leave when felt his head ache and a chill run down his spine and fear crawling under his skin.

Oh gosh...

A quick flash of a bleeding arm passes his vision as he feels sudden anger bursting down on him.

Why does she take the hit?

It felt like he was thrown down a cliff. He was slowly understanding about her but he felt useless. Not being able to do anything to comfort her, so he mutters a quick excuse to Jin about forgetting his phone and rushes back to his room.

Grabbing his headphones, he quickly plays some calming tunes while thinking of a helpful song when he recollects that she's an ARMY.

He turned his mind upside down to remember the lyrics and starts to think about it, sending them to her.

Gwaenchanha ja hana dul set hamyeon ijeo
(It's okay come on when I say one two three forget it)
Seulpeun gieok modu jiwo
(Erase all sad memories)
Nae soneul japgo useo
(Hold my hand and smile)

With clenched fists, he leaves the dorm, trying to keep himself together as a stray thought hits him amidst his efforts to comfort her.

How will I find her...