My Future Family {G.B.D}

Forty Six

Hannah Dolan
"It's going to be fine, okay." I reassured Gray as he sat down on the bed next to Ethan.

"The camera's rolling." Kyle said.

"So, therapy made us realise that we should probably look at some pics of our Dad, so that's what we're going to do." Ethan said, Grayson just nodded.

"This was when we started at the same school as our Dad." Grayson pointed at the picture.

"Are you joking? We're wearing matching shoes and the rest of our outfits are kinda matching too." Ethan joked.

"Do you remember this!?" Grayson smiled, "you and Dad used to have drum-offs."

"Oh yeah." Ethan laughed and pointed at the next picture, "we used to sledge down this hill every year with Dad."

"Oh yeah, and he would—" Grayson stopped talking, bowing his head, and bursting into tears. "He used to push us down — and — and then try and run down — next — next to us." He said in between breaths.

"Yeah, I remember." Ethan said quietly, choking on his own tears. There were a few minutes of silence.

I smiled at them, "you can do this," I whispered.

"I think I want to go through the rest of these in my own time." Grayson raised his head, and placed the pictures behind him on the bed.

"Me too." Ethan replied.

***
"Babe!" Grayson shouted.

"Yeah." I replied.

"Could you come here please?"

"Sure."

"Come sit down." He patted the seat next to him.

It was me with Ava on my lap, Grayson, Ethan, Emma with Lucas on her lap, and Emma on the sofa, in front of the camera.

"We thought it would be good if we all talked about Sean together." Grayson said, looking at me and Emma.

"Okay." I nodded with Ava sitting on my lap, and me holding her hands. Emma nodded too.

"So Hannah and Emma knew our Dad for about 2 years, which isn't that long, but I know that they were quite close." Ethan said to the camera.

"I'd say so." I smiled, holding Ava in my arms.

"Yep." Emma smiled, trying to keep Lucas from squirming around on her lap.

"Do you have any stories about him that we don't know about?" Grayson asked.

Me and Emma sat there trying to think of one before one popped into my mind.

"I have one." I said. "Me and Gray were one year into dating. So, he was 18 and I was 17 at the time, and it was after we had dinner here in Jersey. He pulled me outside on the decking for a chat and he started by talking about Ethan and Grayson's youtube channel, and about how well it was going. But then he started to talk about how happy Gray had been since we started dating, and how he knew that we were going to be together forever." I recounted. Everyone chuckled a little. "At first I was like, together forever sounds a little cringe." Everyone chuckled and nodded. "But then he went on to talk about how he can't wait until me and Gray get married, and how we can't wait to meet our future kids and tell them loads of funny stories." I started to tear up a little, and so did Gray and Lisa. "I guess it's a bit bitter-sweet now because me and Gray are now married and have Ava, but he hasn't been here for it all." A few tears fell down my face, and Grayson took Ava from my lap giving her a massive hug.

"You know, he used to say that to me too, even though me and E had only been dating for a few months before he passed." Emma lightly smiled. Ethan side hugged Emma and held Lucas' hand.

"You know, he used to tell me all about how he knew you and Gray would be married with kids in the future, Hannah. And Emma, he used to tell me the same thing about you and E. He used to tell me that he would spoil them and love them endlessly. Even though he's not here now, I can tell he's looking down and smiling at how you guys have such beautiful children now." Lisa smiled.

"Grandma! Hug!" Lucas said as he jumped off of Emma's lap and ran to Lisa. She picked him up and gave him a hug as she began to cry.

"Group hug!" Ethan shouted and we all piled in.

***
After saying goodnight to everyone, I quietly walked into the room me and Gray were staying in whilst we're in Jersey.

Gray was holding Ava and looking deeply into her eyes as he cried.

"You okay?" I asked sitting down next to him.

"I'm just a little upset that Dad isn't here to hold Ava himself. It was his dream to have grandkids." He replied.

"Hey," I said wiping the tears from his cheeks, "your Dad is watching over us, and watching Ava grow up. I know he is." I rubbed his cheek.

"You think?" He asked looking up at me.

"Yes, and I know he's going to be really proud of the Dad you are becoming! You're literally just like him." I said.

Grayson looked up at me and smiled weakly before side-hugging me.