Light in the Darkness

Chapter 11

Spencer

I smile when the kiss breaks "that wasn't hard was it?"

He shrugs, shyly smiling.

"Wait? I hope you didn't feel obligated to because I said kiss me"I panic

He shakes his head "No Spence, I like you too. I've wanted to say something but I didn't know how to say it. Anxiety makes it hard to open up about things. Also I didn't want you to look at me weird. Telling people my conditions normally causes then to run, and I enjoy our time together too much to lose you. So I kept to myself, but also having you think I was there for other reasons kind of had me feeling, at least with you, like I was normal. But I'm sorry I lie" he admits, still holding me close to him

"Honestly I wish you did tell me from the beginning, but I do understand. I was taken by surprise and clearly Ben said that to me in hopes it would drive us away, it wouldn't have. I was mad in the moment and I probably would've stayed that way at least till the end of the day but I would be a real asshole if I cut you off because you're sick. You didn't do that to me so I wouldn't do it to you"

"Well that's honestly refreshing to hear" he smiles

"Hearing you say you like me is also refreshing" I admit and he chuckles

"Not that I'm complaining but you may want to let me go now, I'm pretty sure people have been watching"

He looks to the right and quickly let's me go, realizing I was right.

I take his hand in mine. "Sit with us?"

He nods as we walk over to the table with my friends who are trying to act like they weren't watching however the smirks on Jenna and Alison's faces prove to me that they were.

"I've gotta buy lunch so I'll be back" he says as he walks to the small line formed outside the Cafe.

Alex

"I swear she said there was nothing going on with them" my friend Jamie says

I shrug "she did, either it was a lie or there wasn't at the time"

"Doesn't this bother you?" Sean asks

"Of course it does. Just like it bothered you with the whole Hanna thing"

"Okay but that was different, Hanna crashed my car and took charity on Lucas"

"And then she asked Aria to keep you company and you tried hitting on her knowing Hanna loves you but also has a soft spot fit anyone who gets bullied like she used to" I raise an eyebrow

"Fine. But this is about you not me" he groans

"Of course it bothers me. I love Spencer. We've known each other since grade 7. We've been close ever since. We shared our first kiss when we were 14.  We officially dated when we were 15. Her parents told her she couldn't start dating until 16 or 17 but they loved me and approved and then all this happened and she tossed me away. And I understood that it was because I remind her of what we used to do together but I figured once she got better we'd be back together but now she's with him. It's confusing"

"What are you gonna do?" Jeff questions

"What can I do?"

"You can tell her you want to be friends" David says

I shake my head "I can't be friends while watching her and him together and not being able to claim her"

David chuckles "Dude, you're making her fall more out of love with you and more with him because she doesn't remember what it's like."

"So she forgot me?"

"No, that's not what I mean. I'm saying if you were to be her friend she'd be reminded of what you guys had and the love she had for you, that will replace whatever new feelings. Plus you saying you liked the be friends with her probably made her feel like you hate her for doing what she did which is what felt best for her when her life got altered"

We all look at him with questioning eyes

"Why are you shocked? I have two sets of twin sisters and only one brother. Each set is two years apart, as there are more girls we hear a lot of the girl drama, so I can some what understand how women feel" he explains

"Well thanks for that, it makes a lot of sense" I nod

Spencer

"I should've put money on it! I said from the start that was boyfriend number two" Alison cheers

"Didn't think it would become this but I've gotta hand it to you Ali, you know me" I chuckle

"Uh duh, we legit have grown up together. It would be weird if I didn't know"

"I wish I could see the kiss but Hanna did a great job describing" Jenna chuckles

"You seem happy" Mona says

I nod "I am. Really" I say as I look back at the line. Seeing Toby is the next person inside

"Then we are happy too. It's nice to see this side of you again" Alexis says.

We haven't spoke much since that argument in the bathroom, this is the first nice thing she said to me since then

I smile "thank you"

"I like him already for making you happy" Emily adds

"Listen before he comes back I'm just gonna share this. He has anxiety so please just try to make him feel welcomed and at ease. Don't make too many jokes up front, let him get used to your humour"

"Okay, understood" Aria nods

Hanna raises her eyebrows signalling his return.

"Hey" he says as he takes a seat

"Sup Toby" Hanna nods

"I got us all pizza, was unsure if you had lunch and just wanted to share "

"Aww Toby you didn't have to" Emily tells him

"But it is really nice of you" Alexis adds

"And none of us can turn down pizza, especially when it's free so thanks" Alison chuckles as we all grab a slice.

I press a kiss to his cheek before leaning on his shoulder

"Thank you" I whisper to him.

He smiles back at me before grabbing a slice himself.

A.N

I promise the characters will get longer as I go along I just have to get back into the groove as this is my first update on this book since 2018😅