Light in the Darkness

Chapter 1-Edited

Spencer

"Here we go again" I groan as my alarm ringer pierces through my ears.

I sigh and turn to the side, turning it off roughly.

"Can't I just stay in bed?" I ask loudly even though there's no one around to answer me.

I roll out of bed sloppily, basically throwing myself on the floor which wasn't smart cause now I'm just sitting on my knees in front of my bed with no energy or will to get up.

I force myself up though, knowing Alison will be here soon to drive Al and I to school.

I grab a grey hoodie, tights my bra and underwear and lay them on my bed before grabbing my towel and robe.

"Al you in there?" I call when I knock on my side of the washroom door.

We have a Jack and Jill washroom for the two of us which is convenient.

Melissa and Jason have one for their rooms as well while my parents have one for themselves.

"Just brushing my teeth you can come in" she says

"Good Morning" she smiles as I enter the washroom

"Morning" I nod

I step into the shower, peeling my clothes off before throwing them on the floor outside the shower.

I let the warm water hit my body, loving the feeling of being in water.

"So, any plans today?" She asks me

"Yeah after school I'm going ballroom dancing and then hiking and to top it off sky diving" I roll my eyes.

Everyone asks the same questions knowing I always have the same answers

"Okay, I'm sorry, no need for sarcasm. I'm just trying to start a conversation. You aren't really chatty much these days"

"Well I'm sorry I don't like talking much when people around me give me pity" I raise an eyebrow as I lather shampoo in my hair.

I hear her spit before the tap turns on.

She gargles and spits again before turning the tap off.

"I don't pity you Spencer, I worry about you"

I sigh "same thing"

"No, not the same thing. I worry about you because I love you and I worry about you because I'm sure this is hard for you. It's hard enough for me as your twin watching you in pain so I can't even imagine your level but I'm worried about how you choose to cope. And I miss my sister, my twin who I grew up with. The Spencer I knew for 17 years and seeing you as a hollow version of yourself hurts me. I strive for our relationship so yes, I'll ask repeat questions but it's not for pity, it's out of desperation to have a decent relationship again" she explains

"I'm sorry Alexis, I am but you can't expect me to be the same. Not after this. I can't be me if I can't do things that make me, me. I can't be me without feeling like me. And I don't feel like me because I'm not being me. And I don't know how to explain that for everyone to understand. I'm not being negative, I'm facing reality. And the sooner this sickness takes over the faster everyone will have to stop acting this way and just move on" I express

I hear her gasp.

"You didn't just say that! Are you kidding? I... I just... I can't with you right now!" I hear her groan before I hear footsteps followed by a door slam.

I shrug. I just said the truth, she needs to accept it.

Alison

"Morning" I say as I enter the Hastings home.