For Emma

Chapter 1

     "Honey, Listen It's all right." That's what my grandma says every time she knows it's not.

     I was clutching the perfume bottle Sam had given me, This most desired sent since Eve kissed Adam, I sprayed myself once with it every morning and would say, 'once for good luck', and then Sam would to the same. The bottle was now slippery in my hands from sweat.

I covered my ears pretending that they were hiding what my grandma had just told me. There was alcohol in her blood, slick, wet roads. She just made too sharp of a turn. Quick impact didn't feel a thing. How did they know she didn't feel a thing? I thought and then all I could see was glass and shreds of metal tearing into my sister's head. How couldn't that be painful?

One of my six aunts came over to me for a hug, but I just shoved her away running out of the room with the perfume bottle. Past my mother who face was blank and staring at nothing I knew she couldn't see me or just wouldn't. She was like this when dad died. Past my first aunt who loved Samantha more than anything, more than me.

She didn't look at me just at her puddle of tears at her feet. Past my Grandpa who was hugging my grandma tightly. They were both hunched over crying silently. Past my only uncle on my dad's side who owned more horses then you'd see at a rodeo. He met my blurred gaze, he was crying like me. Face twisted, ugly, and loudly sobbing.

 I kept running. Past anymore family and then ran even more. I kept hoping that I would somehow run out of breath, and explode into nothing. I let my house vanish behind me, let my neighbor's stair all they wanted, let cars honk angrily at me as I ran down the middle of the street, but I wouldn't let Samantha be dead. Ever. 

    

Chapter 2

     The funeral was worse than the day I found out she died. It rained early that morning. I didn't sleep at all that night so I decided to get ready at 3:00am. I haven't slept at all since I found out except for the first night she was gone. I was so tired from crying and seeing Sam's body without a heartbeat made me to week to move.