Finding Myself

Trust

It's been a couple weeks since I've met Noah. He's been sleeping with me every night. I wake up to his arms wrapped around me. I sigh. He was perfect but I couldn't be with him. Not after what happened with Nick and I. I wouldn't be surprised if I never trusted another guy again. I roll out of bed and stumble to the shower.

After my shower I walk into the bedroom putting on a crop top and high waisted jeans. Noah flutters his eyes open and looks up at me "Morning Beautiful"

I blush trying to hide my smile "Morning Noah" he smiles "going somewhere?" I nod "yeah I'm going out with the girls then to go talk to my mom and dad apperantly they have something to tell me. He nods "well u look beautiful today" he says standing up coming over to me and tucking a strand of hair behind my ear he leans in about to kiss me and I push him back.

"Noah I can't. Not yet anyways." He sighs "did I do something wrong I thought we've been having an amazing two weeks?" "We have Noah but I hate to say it Nick broke my trust in all guys and your just going to have to respect that" he sighs letting me go"I accept but doesn't mean I'm not going to keep trying to get u to trust me. I'm not like Nick or other guys. I will treat you with respect and love. This is the first step me respecting your space. So go have fun and I will see u later"

I sigh and nod leaving and going to meet up with my girls.

I get to the coffee shop and walk in order my normal Carmel macchiato. I go and sit at our normal spot waiting for them to come in.

They walk in about 15 mins later and order there drinks coming to sit with me. "So how is everything?" Piper says smiling

I sigh "it's okay. I'm just really lost and emotional. These past couple weeks have been so great with Noah but-" I was cut off by Sarah "but what Bri? He's great!" I nod "he is but Nick kinda ruined my trust for all guys and while it's great to have a distraction I just don't want to put trust into another guy and end up getting my heart broken again"

Piper sighs rolling her eyes " you can't let what happened with Nick define your relationship with other guys especially with Noah. Ever since this Nick thing happened you've been so bummed out. And we just wanna see our happy smiley care free Brianna again"

I know they are right these past couple weeks have been all about how I felt about the Nick situation. That I wasn't focusing on how I felt about the Noah situation. Did I like him? Yes Was he there for me when I was heart broken? Yes. Did I trust him? So far he hasn't done anything for me not to. But I don't want to just jump into this because I don't want him to think that he's just a rebound because he's not.

After my girls date I went to my parents house they said they needed to talk to me. So I made the decision to go and see them. I walked in since I still have a key. I find my mom in the kitchen making dinner and my dad helping her. It was nice to see them like this but it also angered me that she was letting him back in after what he did. "hey" I said nonchalantly as I sat at the bar. They turned around and smiled at me. "Hey babygirl! How was your day?" My mom asked so I went on to tell them about my girls day. I haven't really told them about Nick. I just told them it didn't work out and that I was staying with Piper and Sarah. Which was a lie but I don't think it's a good idea to tell them. But I decided that I was gonna tell them everything. Since I've decided that I'm gonna try to be with Noah.

Mom finished making dinner and set the table for the 3 of us. The little ones were at aunt Blanca and uncle Carter's so that my parents could just talk to me. Which made me nervous I didn't want to be alone with them if they tell me they are getting a divorce.

We all sit at the table. "So the reason we asked you to come is to tell you about the situation" my mom said. I poked at my food preparing myself to hear the worst. "So when I got home from tour your mom was not happy with me. Screaming at me saying she wanted a divorce. I didn't know what she was talking about until I had her explain" I look at my dad with wide eyes "so apparently my colleague texted your mom that because she wanted me to herself. None of it is true Brianna. I made her admit that to your mom. So everything is cleared up. I fired her and made sure she deleted my number" I was so relieved to here that news I got up from my chair and hugged them both. I was so happy that they aren't getting a divorce. "You don't know how happy that makes me" I says smiling as I take my seat. "Okay since y'all were honest with me it's my turn to be honest" I took a deep breath. "So I haven't exactly been staying with Piper and Sarah. I've been staying with a guy named Noah. I had to move out of Nick's because he hit me and abused me. He was drunk but found out he's been cheating on me for 3 months so I've just kind of been staying with Noah. " It took them a second to respond but they both got up to hug me. "Were happy that you got out of an abusive relationship but you should've told us that u were staying with a different boy" I nod understanding "oh and one more thing. I think I might date him. He's really sweet and hot." They look at me "okay well if your gonna be dating him and staying with him then you've gotta bring him to dinner" I bit my lip nervously but I knew this was the only way I'd be able to keep staying with Noah. "Okay I will but dad you've gotta be on your best behavior." He laughed and nodded

We talked a little more and finished our dinner I said my goodbyes kissing them and heading back to Noah's apartment.

When I got there I went inside since he gave me a key. He was stretched out on the couch. I smiled at how cute he was. I tip toed over to him and kissed his now. He scrunched it up his eyes fluttering opened. His tired sleepy face turned into a huge smile when he saw me. And he sat up I say next to smiling.

"Hey babygirl! How was your girls date?" I smiled "it was good they made me realize something." He gave me a confused look "it better be good" I cut him off by hitting him playfully

"Just let me talk...I told you this morning that it is going to be hard for me to trust guys after what happened with Nick. But Piper and Sarah helped me realize that I can't let happened with him control my life. So I want to try us. But take it slow 1. Because I don't want you to think your a rebound and 2. I still need to know that I trust you. And if u take care of me and make me feel like you did on Valentine's day I know for a fact that it won't be that hard. So what do you say?"

He stared at me in awe and then smiled "don't worry beautiful I'll treat you like the queen that you are. You can trust on that babe" I smiled and leaned in to kiss him he leaned in as well a lips crashed together this felt better then anything it felt right. Like it was meant to be. After a few we pulled away and rested our foreheads together.

"You better not break my trust Centineo" "Never Whitesides"