Finding Myself

Fix your Heart

Noah's POV:

Ever since Brianna and I broke up I had no motivation to get up in the morning. It's been 2 months and I still feel like a complete asshole.

I know I shouldn't have let Nick get the better of me and convince me to do what I did for him. But I felt like I didn't have a choice. It just really sucks.

But then he found out Brianna and I broke up and he just kind of let me off the hook. It's like he got what he wanted and now thinks he has a shot with her. But not if I have anything to do with it.

I just saw her Instagram post and it breaks my heart that it's about me and that I'm the one who caused her any pain. I love that girl so much. She brought light back into my life. And how do I repay her? By going out, getting girls drunk. I'm just as bad as Nick in this. I need to do something about it.

One day, I'll stand up to Nick and get my girl back.

Brianna's POV:

I moved my stuff out of Noah's place the day after he and I broke up and moved in with Piper and Sarah. Only because I didn't want to go back home.

I feel like going back home after not being home for months just felt....I don't know strange. Like I'm supposed to be a grown up so I don't think moving back in to my old childhood room is the best option

I liked staying with Piper and Sarah anyways. It was nice just being around them all the time. I just hated the fact that I felt like I was intruding. I mean they asked me to move in but like it still felt werid. I don't know.

Lately I've felt like laying in bed all the time. Crying myself to sleep. I didn't really feel like going anywhere or doing anything.

But then I got this Netflix series offer and they said that they have seen my audition from To All the Boys I Loved Before. And really enjoyed it. They also watched some of my YouTube videos.

Oh yeah after Noah and I broke up I started doing YouTube just to preoccupy my mind. It was a nice get away. I usually talked about my feelings. And life with being daughter of world famous Jacob Whitesides.

Basically me just talking about my feelings. I called it. Let's get Real with Brianna Whitesides. Then sometimes I would answer peoples questions about life and it was just a fun experience.

I've gained a wide fan base from it and people are responding well. I'm just really excited for this next step in my life without any boy distractions it's just time to focus on me.

They say fix your heart before you can love anyone else and that's exactly what I am doing.