Finding Myself

Spinning

Brianna's POV:

I got home about 20 minutes later and went straight to my room without even looking at the girls.

Today has been a horrible day and my head is spinning. I take a deep breath. Which wasn't a good idea because as soon as I let the breath out tears starting spilling out of my eyes like Niagara falls. I fell to my knees and started sobbing rocking back and forth. Anxiety was building up inside me and I felt like throwing up. But I couldn't move I was stuck. The weight of the world was holding me down on the floor.

I was trying to contain my cries because I didn't want Piper and Sarah to see me like this. After what felt like hours I was finally able to stand up and make my way to my bathroom. I washed my face brushed my teeth and jumped in the shower. I needed to get every memory of today off my body.

After my shower I threw my long wavy hair into a messy bun threw on some shorts and a t-shirt and went to my bed.

I tried to shut my eyes but all the memories of that day and the last few months flooded through my mind. So I just lied there awake watching the ceiling fan spin round and round.

Noah's POV:

As I watched her leave I debated on going after her. But I knew that what I told her was alot to take in.

The door shut. Her car started up. And I heard her pull out of the driveway. I slammed my fist on the kitchen counter "fuck" I yelled. I ran up to my room and started destroying anything I could get my hands on.

When my hand grazed over a picture frame I was about to throw it but Brianna's beautiful smile in the picture made me look out it. I smiled slightly to myself remembering everything. I held the picture close to my chest and falling to my knees letting the tears fall.

I hadn't realized how much I was holding in and how much pain I was actually in. I never really let myself cry after the break up. I would tell myself you did it for her. This is the best way.

But I was beginning to think that it wasn't. I mean why would it be? We're both miserable. I know she misses me I could see it in her eyes when she came over.

But I screwed that up by telling her my little secret. I don't know if she will ever talk to me again.

I guess I didn't realize how hard I was crying till everything started spinning and for a moment everything went black.

I tried to recollect myself I managed to for a minute just enough to call her. When I heard she answered I chocked out help and then everything went black.