secret royality; jjk + kth

•kth• sixty-seven'

speechless.
I couldnt find any words that would fit into our situation, just let my body react to it. my cheeks were wet from all the tears & still I somehow felt numb.

perhaps it just hadn't reached my brain yet & I just didnt realize it yet, while my heart still did. i was so numb, I didnt even feel the tight hug jeongguk pulled me into at first, but immediately after realising it i clawed into his shirt & cried into his shirt.

that was the moment everything hit me all at once. too much, make it stop! I thought as I buried my head further into the crook of jeongguks neck & his tear-soaked shirt.

please, I can't leave you..

please, we'll find a way..

please, don't let go..

please, make the pain stop..

my heart was aching. it wasn't just a way of saying it to express my pain, it legitimately hurt, it was physical pain. I cringed at the pain & heartbreaking panting could be heared from me. my left hand was grabbing jeongguks shirt that I wore at my chest, right where my heart was, while the other was grabbing his arm, searching for something to hold on.

I felt so helpless & the panic attack I was going through wasnt making anything better.

I was about to be alone again.

completely lonely.

cut off from everything.

without friends.

without love.

but most importantly;
without him.