Driven

Ch 15

Leslie's P.O.V.

The warm sunlight hit my face as I groaned running a hand over my face as I squinted through the brightness. My mouth shut fearful of my own morning breath as I turned to see Ethan lay beside me.

This boy had trusted me with his first, I felt thankful even just thinking of it, what would I have done if he had been taken already I don't know.

He was probably going to be in quite a bit of pain after last night, so I got out of bed before grabbing some massage oils and turned on the towel heater before going back towards the bed. I lean towards him, before brushing his forehead and he mumbled something in response but did not wake up. I chuckle before shifting him gently so that he lay on his chest and straddled his hips. I slowly poured the oil in my palms, warming it up before gently massaging it into his back. It only takes a few seconds before Ethan wakes up completely and I smile as he yawns, straining his neck to look up at me. When he sees that it's just me on his back he just mumbles 'tank you' before stuffing his face back into his pillow. I chuckle and shake my head before simply continuing to massage his back as he let out small moans of pleasure every few minutes.

After about 15-20 minutes of giving him a massage I slowly stand up and he reaches out grabbing my arm and mumbles 'Don't leave' sleepily, and before I can say anything, he pulls away more alert and says louder, "Sorry I didn't mean to be clingy!!". I shake my head, my eyes slightly widened in surprise before reaching over and running my fingers through his hair, as he relaxes and I reply, "It's ok baby, that wasn't clingy. It's all ok, I'm just going to put this stuff away and get a towel for you, just a sec ok?" I stand up, and wash my hands and put away the oils and things like that before walking back to him with the hot wet towel in my hands. I lay it over his back and he flinches in shock but quickly relaxes with a loud moan as I sit beside him.

"How're you feeling?" I ask as he enjoys the warm towel.

"I feel great sir, the massage really helped. I can almost feel my body melt away. Um...Last night was amazing too, I can't believe how much I liked it." He says blushing as he remembers last night.

"I actually had a question about last night, when you were high and flying, you weren't in subspace right? Is there something bothering you? Because you almost got scared at the peak and you almost let go but there was something holding you back." I ask, I was genuinely concerned for him because he was currently so tied up by something that he couldn't let his mind and thoughts leave his body and when the pull to fly got too strong, he just seemed to give up and faint.

"Yeah there are a few things, but they're just... I don't know, it's just difficult to talk about. I don't really consciously think of them but they are at the back of my mind often, I guess." Ethan replied, his eyes dazed and vacant. "Are you asking me because you wanted me to tell you, or did you just want to know?" He asked, not looking up to meet my eyes.

"I wanted to know what is bothering you, I say this as a doctor and a boyfriend you should always be able to find one small individual state that allows you to fly free and forget about all your problems. I completely understand if you find it difficult to talk to me but I definitely think that you should get a therapist or just someone to talk to."

"Yeah, I know. I'll... uh... I'll think about it." He nods unsurely, "Anyway, I'm feeling kind of... snacky and peckish, is there anything chocolatey or something?"

"Yeah no, I'm not letting you just have chocolate first thing in the morning, we can have banana pancakes instead, they are delicious you'll love them." I persuade watching him for a reaction, he smirks before pushing himself up and leaning in towards me as I wait for his response. He gets close to my lips and whispers-