Sirius was in a dark room, laying on a bed. The room was dimly lit, but the faint outline of Talulah was unmistakable. She slowly crawled up to him, placing her hand on his chest and then leaning her slim body onto him. Sirius could feel his own heartbeat racing as she leaned her face in closer to him, ready to give him another taste of her lips. Just as she was about to, the scene faded to black.
That was the dream Sirius had the past few week. He couldn't explain to anyone else what had happened, nor would they believe him of he told. He told himself that he should forget it. Forget that it all ever happened, but his inner instincts got the better of him. As much as he knew he should forget it, the feeling of that one kiss festered. He wanted more, even though he felt like it was some sort of forbidden love that should never happen. He dazed out sometimes, during meeting and it took Dobermann and Nearl to get him back to the topic. They both knew something had happened, that she might have traumatized him, but they didn't know what really happened. Furthermore, his own ideals and outlook of Rhodes Island had changed. It didn't feel the same to him anymore, not that he fully trusted it in the first place since his recovery from the wreckage at Chernobog. But something was definitely different now. Perhaps he should speak with someone to settle his mind...
"Doctor? Doctor. Do you agree with my plan?"
"E-eh?"
He had dazed off again without realizing it. Shu was standing in front of him, showing him the next defensive formations they should have when the next battle arrived. Apologizing, he returned his attention to Shu.
"My apologies. I dazed off again for another moment. Would you please explain again?"
He spoke it in a way that sounded sincere. He didn't want to make it sound like he dazed off because it was a bad plan. Looking at the battle plans map, he decided that it was a good one, but he needed to be explained more about the roles.
"Its alright, Doctor. They told me what happened to you in the forest. You passed out cold for some reason once everyone got evacuated. I shouldn't bother you until you're completely well."
"No no! I was just...thinking about something.."
"Do you want to talk about what she said to you?"
In Sirius's mind, he thought: "It's not about what she said. Its what she did.", but alas, he couldn't say that. He just shook his head and gave a weary smile at Shu.
"It was her just trying to mess with my head and thoughts. Nothing of much importance."
"Ah, I see. Sorry for pushing this onto you. So do you agree with my battle formation then? If you're not too tired to check it of course."
"I just looked at it and I think this works great. The enemy wraiths definitely won't make it through. Good work."
Shu smiled and gave a nod, rolling up the battle map and then walking away after saluting the Doctor. When he left, Sirius sat down on a chair and rubbed his forehead. He gave a frustrated sigh and closed his eyes for a moment. He could still picture Talulah's face and feel her lips on his. Shaking his head, he thought, "What the heck is wrong with me? This isn't...right at all.". He couldn't possibly be feeling love, could he? It was just a one time thing, but the way she had teased him about being shy and the way she seemed laid back during the conversation were things he found himself remembering. And even if he had those feelings, it didn't mean that she would return them. He got up from his seat. He felt that this was some sort of dark secret that he shouldn't ever tell anyone. He needed to distract himself from the thoughts and needed the image of Talulah and what she did to fade from his mind. Just at that moment, a person entered and Sirius turned suddenly, startled. It was just Ch'en. She turned, saw him startled, and gave a quick apology before walking towards him.
