Secret Love - A Taekook ff (English version)

Secret Love - part 19

Even if they got reunited, Tae and Jungkook were uneasy how to behave in public. They still had to lie in interviews, and they got nervous every time they got asked what type of girl they like. The agency was clueless about them getting together again. Both males were too anxious about it to tell. Gladly the website who wanted to expose them shut his mouth after Bighit paid them a big amount of money. Both felt guilty and bad about this, and tried to keep their distance in public. Nobody knew about their relationship anyway, only their closest friends and family. But one time, Tae told an MC back then some ambiguous things, and he suspected him to tell the website. On the other hand, it was possible that someone just saw them together. On their couple trip perhaps. Or it was someone from staff. As a precaution they were very careful anywhere besides their dorm, keeping their distance when others where around, trying to act as if they were just friends. That took a toll out of them, and their relationship suffered a lot because of it. Jungkook couldn't risk getting Taehyung exposed and unmasked like this. Tae's unreal beauty was getting more and more the centre of attention, and even if Jungkook supported this, he was also afraid of it, because a lot of people joined him, wanted to come close to him to make friends, to admire him, or to write an article. Jungkook always watched from a far with suspicion. Soon after the same website, that was about to expose them asked for a photoshoot with Taehyung. Afraid of getting threatened again, Bighit gave green lights for it. Tae doesn't wanted to go there at first, but he had no choice. He did it at least for the rest of the group. Taehyung was indeed very moody and let his photographer feel that. He didn't say a word and wanted to get this over. It wasn't bad for the shooting, Taehyung looked amazing in any kind of expression. But as he was asked to smile a bit, he struggled. The photographer sighed and took a break for himself and for Taehyung. The photographer was in middle age, had a friendly and round face and was a short one. Taehyung was sorry for his behaviour, but he couldn't behave else, since he was still mad about the whole incident. "It's an honour for me to make this shooting with you. The camera loves you.» «Thanks» Tae said grimly, showing a fake smile. «Can I share a secret with you?» The photographer got closer. Tae looked at him with furrowed eyebrows. «Why?» He sipped on his bottle of water. «Because you are an inspiration. You and Jungkook.» Taehyung choked on his water. He coughed, but looked uneasy at the other male as he recovered. "Don't be afraid, I'm not gonna tell any body. But you made me confident...because...I'm...well...I'm gay.» "Oh, really?» Now he got Taehyung's full attention. «Yeah...nobody knows it, not even my family. But I even have a boyfriend for years.» He looked to the ground sadly. "It's so tiring to pretend to be someone else.» Tae sighed. «That's true.» «How do you deal with it?» Taehyung fidgeted with his fingers nervously. He gulped. «We were forced to break up after the thing with your agency." "I'm so sorry.» the photographer was filled with consternation. Tae smiled. «...but it didn't last long...» Tae startled and covered his mouth as he realised what he just said out loud. He looked at the photographer with big eyes. «Don't worry, I wouldn't dare to tell this somebody. It's safe with me.» Tae exhaled relieived. «The pressure is unbelievable. But it strangely increases our desire of one another at the same time. It's ironic.» The photographer nodded. «I have an idea.» Tae looked at him with questions in his eyes. "What's that?» «Maybe it's silly, but if you are going to out yourselves, nobody is able to threaten you like this again." Tae looked at him uneasy. «Maybe the time has come. To change korea.» Tae pressed his lips together. He smiled at the optimism of the photographer. "Do you want to hide yourself your whole life? You are getting more and more successful..." "Of course not! But we don't know what the future will hold for us, and we are too anxious to harm our families and our company. The band. To lose that. That it will fall apart. Or to bring our families in dishonour and shame. That we have to leave BTS and Bighit. And that our relationship can't take all of this and break apart. It's not worth it. all of this." "And if you let them get used to it?" "How?» «Through art, through music, photography and so on.» «Well in fact, that's already happening...RM said we are an inspiration for him." "Not only for him. Also for me and probably for a lot more people! We can make an exclusive series of photos of you two. I would be your personal photographer.» «You would do this for us?" «Of course.» «Jungkook wants at least the fans to know. He is leaving bread crumbs how he calls it. Hints. He says, who wants to support us will solve his hints. Funny story. Yesterday I was in the city, walking around and there was a graffiti on the wall, and it said: 'Who wants, will find ways, who doesn't want, will find reasons.' This is very true. We discovered there are already supportive fanpages of us. That warmth my heart and is very encouraging." "What if Bighit will support this idea? If they can't separate you two, the risk to pay again is too high." Tae nodded. "Jhope says me and Kookie are anyway doing what we want. We are both very headstrong..." he chuckled. "Then...shall I talk to the company?" "Maybe...I will talk to Kookie about it."