Damaged Love

Coming to terms

Come over

I can't come over

I am not strong enough

to resist the pull from you

and I will make mistakes

or you might

if there is influence

from alcohol

your lips will be on mine

and if you ask for permission

I'd give you all

you don't want the power

and I don't want the lose

so even if I needed you tonight

I can not go over

because I'll lose the control

I am barely getting back

if I see your face tonight

I will lose it all

and if I touch your skin

I will be lost all over again

I will be lost once again

Coming to terms

finally

coming to terms

that I was not ready

that I can not push my own limits,

my own body,

just because I want something

I thought after years alone

I was ready to start something new

but those years

weren't for healing

they were for distractions

and for isolation

so coming to terms

I realize

even though I need you

even though I want you with every fiber of my being

I need to love myself first

so for now,

I have to take a step back

and not lose myself within you

Support

I support you

You support me

but I don't support myself

I came home

to find comfort

and instead found chaos,

anger,