Damaged Love

Goodbye Letters

Suicide Letters

I am scared

because I write suicide letters

and leave them in every place

I go

I don't want to end things

with loose ends

and messy areas

I want the end

to be as easy 

and painless 

for all of you who 

get caught up

in my 

tsunami

Anger

I am angry

that you are so positive

I wish I was able 

to be optimistic

and helpful

like you

but instead

it makes me angry

let me drown,

let me yell

in fact

scream with me

let me know that I am not alone in this

and that it is okay to feel these emotions

Sacrifices

It has been

since my first relationship

that lead to abuse

that I have not sacrificed 

my wants for another person

and I am angry with myself

that I have spent 

so much time, energy, and emotions

on you,

that I sacrifice things,

without you asking 

or even knowing

I have been independent,

alone,

for so long

and I got used to playing by my own rules,

saying fuck it 

to everything else

and you never asked 

for me to drain myself