Damaged Love

Validation

A giant wreck

I am

a giant wreck

the words come out

in nonsensical strings

and the rope you hold onto

is ripping your skin

its more damage holding on to me

then letting go

Cross faded

when being drunk

makes me panic

that asking for help

will make others leave

that is when I know

I have abused alcohol

too much,

and when the cuts start to pool

and I can hear the rip of my skin

I know I have gone too far

and when I use drugs

I know that

I have messed up

because I don't like that me

isn't that a rule for me?

and when

I beg

for someone to stay

then that crossfaded ways

has taken it's toll

and I need to get sober

again

Validation

I am

not

a social butterfly

but I need the approval

and validation

to be worth something

can I be your 10/10

a five star rating

and even if I am not theirs,

or even yours,

can I be that for myself

Believing

I trust myself

to leave you alone

and be okay

I trust you

to not leave me

like others before

just because I am not

at your beg and call

I need to believe

that cheating is not going on

for either of us

just because we are not together

in that moment

I need to believe

that a few days from you

will not make you lose interest in me