Damaged Love

Mental Health Day

Medication

The medication 

is getting in the way

to where I do not know

if it is hurting me

or helping me more

while my depression may

be getting better

my black outs

are coming faster and harder then before

and my suicidal thoughts

are persistent

and I wonder

was I able to get through

this 

better 

without the medication

was I happier

before I let myself think

I couldn't do it

without the meds help

Rules and Boundaries II

We both 

 keep trying to do

   what the other needs

While forgetting

  what we need

yet if I think

  about my own wants

    it hurts you

and it you think

  about my needs

    you decide

      that we are better as friends

        but if that really what you want

          or am I misreading your bodies signs

Isolation Day

this is the worst

isolation day

because I have seen you through out the day

but in a way that's better

maybe I am not fully ready

to go from break downs and blackouts

to being completely alone

I wish I could

I want to get a break from myself

and give you a break from me

I wish everyone could get a break from me

until I feel okay again,

and I don't feel such a burden

I want to be that happy, fun self